This is a message of HOPE for this experiencing ROCD. You can get through this ane I know this because I have.
This year has been the hardest of my life. I started experiencing ROCD with my new partner in January and it absolutely crippled me. I could barely go to work, I was in tears almost all of the time. I wasn't sleeping, I lost about 8 kg because my appetite was so suppressed because of my anxiety and I genuinely thought that I was incapable of loving and would be alone forever.
Fast forward to now and I went through three different therapists having no idea that I had ocd. I found NOCD about 3.5 months ago, started taking an SSRI and I feel like a new person. I am happy and smiling again, I feel great affection for my partner after feeling so disconnected and often repulsed by him and I am excited about a future together. Whereas before, even the thought of planning our future in any way made me feel sick with dread and anxiety.
I genuinely cannot believe what a difference these past few months have made and if you are thinking about doing ERP, please talk to your doctor and do it. It has made such a difference to my life and this can be you as well.
I know that when you're in the thick of it, it seems impossible that things will ever change, but they can if you're willing to do the work. You can do this ❤️❤️