Success story! After spending too much time ruminating the last two days, being tired of beating myself up and trapping myself, I decided that I’m done today. So the thought popped into my head many times. And it was scary. And I don’t know all the answers. But I don’t give a shit anymore. I don’t care if someone thinks I’m right or wrong or I deserve good things or I don’t. I want to be happy and love myself, so I’m going to be happy and love myself. Do I still have some anxiety, yes. Did I ruminate or ask for reassurance today, no. It feels a little easier now than it did earlier in the day after resisting all day long. I still have uncomfortable feelings but feelings are just feelings so I don’t care. My baby could be born any day now, the doctor said possibly as soon as tomorrow! He needs a mama who is going to show him what it’s like to handle uncertainty and love yourself no matter. 💪🏻