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I’ve done a lot of horrible things too. It’s really difficult, and when I say horrible, I mean down right shameful. I’m ashamed of the person I used to be. I believe people can change, but you’re right, it never feels like it applies to me. I don’t know what you’ve done in the past, but the fact you have remorse shows you have a conscience. You’re not alone, we’re only human, I saw your bio and says you’re 19, I am too. Just try to remember we were children and teens who didn’t habe good impulse control, that’s what my therapist told me. I don’t ever try to excuse what I’ve done because I know what I did was wrong, but I simply just want to know if it’s possible to move forward after all of it. So you’re not alone, have you been going to therapy? I found confessing to those closest to me helped, but confessing to everyone isn’t great though, but yeah, I hope you keep going, not one human is perfect, and we all do bad things, you’ll get through this though! Sending love💜
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Thank you so much 💛 is 19 years old.. still young or at this point I'm old enough to know better? I feel i still make mistakes linked to my past. Its frustrating. Thank you though again. Your words really helped 😄
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Honey, you're definitely not alone in this cause I'm going through the exact same thing as you. We are human beings and we are meant to make mistakes! Please be kind and gentle to yourself. 💜
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Thank you so much! Please also remember that for yourself as I know sometimes it's easy to forgive and understand others but hard to do the same for yourself. You deserve to forgive yourself no matter what you did or feel you still do . Thank you for being so kind💛
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@🌸 You're welcome, dear. You're literally so kind Omg thank you so much, dear. I'll remember that and you too, remember that okay? ❤️❤️❤️ And yessss you're right it's easy to forgive and understand others but myself. But we have to realize that we're only human beings and we're not perfect. Same to you, you deserve yo forgive yourself no matter what you did or feel you still do. ❤️❤️ Thank YOU for being so kind💙
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Let me know if you wanna talk. I'm always here. 💜
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Thank you!! Same for you 💕
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I just wanna say I relate to this post so much and I’m also the same age! I’m in therapy for my issues and it’s hard to disclose the real event stuff to my therapist but erp helps so much even if it’s an actual bad thing. People make mistakes both small and large, you don’t deserve to obsess about it 24/7 and feel debilitating guilt and anxiety over it. Mine seems like the worst irredeemable thing ever and sometimes & I feel like it could legit mean something about me but that’s just ocd talking. after treatment I’ve had moments of clarity & realizations that it means nothing about or that it’s not as bad as ocd makes it out to be . Show yourself more kindness, ocd loves attaching to stuff like this to use as “proof” if your anything like me it’s probably the main thing fueling your obsession. I would definitely seek out an ocd specialist if you haven’t already, this subtype can be really debilitating. Hope this helps
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Thank you so much! I'm sorry to hear you also go through something similar to what I do. Back in 2020 my ocd really developed. It wasn't cause of something I did years ago but because of things I was doing then, even developing ocd ..i was still doing them. Maybe even things I regret this year too. But I take everyday as a learning experience and I try and grow from it. I will try and seek professional help because I feel I really need it at this point. I feel the exact way you described. The guilt, shame and anxiety really overwhelm me and make me feel I don't deserve another chance at life...I also always fear it means something about me..I do try and ignore all those feelings.. though sometimes it gets hard. It really is the main thing fueling my obsession. I will take your advice! Thank you again 💕
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You can change if you want to. A lot of people don’t. But you have the agency and personal responsibility to change, yes.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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