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- BlakeAlexander15
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I used to deal with this so intensely I became agoraphobic last year. I promise just small exposures to these thoughts will help. I occasionally deal with it but that’s because I do compulsions every now and then; still working on recovery. I’d say it’s 80% removed from my life, I just have to do the last 20%.
I feel I’m also becoming agoraphobic and I don’t know how to handle it. Any advice?
@hopeful for hygge My biggest advice is gonna be tough. I’d try to go outside regardless of the fear as much as possible. I spent months in my house wasting away due to fear and I regret it a lot. When you do those little outside exposures make sure you do self care too. Remind yourself why going out is fun, buy yourself a snack or simple just take a beautiful walk even when it seems scary. Know that it will take time for the anxiety to calm down, could take months but trust the process and be compassionate toward yourself. You got this.
I can relate to what you’re going through. I’ve been experiencing depersonalization / derealization (DP/DR) for almost a year and a half now, and I think it’s made my OCD worse and probably causing more OCD themes too. It’s a dance between the two with OCD making depersonalization worse and depersonalization making OCD worse. Currently doing EMDR therapy. Do you have a good therapist who knows how to treat DP/DR? I can share some of my grounding / coping skills if you think that would be helpful.
Hey depersonalisation has become a sort of OCD theme around my harm ocd as I’m constantly questioning what do I feel and if I’m feeling guilt, empathy etc for the past year it’s been tough it feels constant, I feel like I’m spectating life and not actually living it feeling disconnected from people around me and the world not just myself, it’s a shitty feeling and it’s Lonley. Like you I started questioning constantly am I going crazy or am I developing schizophrenia or something like that, so I can relate 100% I hope this helps just try to let yourself be and whatever comes naturally happens try not to live in fear of your emotion.
Yes yes yes. It’s so frightening. Constantly feeling outside of my own body, not recognizing myself, and feeling like I’m a bunch of different people. I’m with you in solidarity. I wish I knew how to make it better.
I go through DR when my ocd flares up. It took 4 months but now I feel like I’m finally coming back.
Anyone ever got stuck in a ocd loop about dissociation? If so, how were you able to pull yourself out of it? I tend to over analyze everything around me all the time to see if I’m back to normal reality but I can’t quite grasp that expectation. It’s been a decent amount of time, maybe little less than a year. The intensity varies a lot but doesn’t quite go away a 100%. Hoping someone has dealt with this and can offer some guidance since it can be quite debilitating, especially when it comes to having responsibilities like school, work, and a girlfriend to care for.
I’m in a relapse of my rocd if we can call it that, it’s been months now and it’s so hard. I love my partner an amazing amount but everything I do tells me different. Rocd tells me I don’t love him, I don’t even like or care about him and it breaks my heart. All day long anytime I get excited or happy about something my rocd says that’s because you don’t love him anymore. It’s so hard as I have such a negative view of him with rocd and my mind won’t let me think of anything positive although I was so incredibly happy. He feels like a stranger to me I use to be so comfortable with him and he was my best friend and it just felt right. Even when I was experiencing rocd thoughts from my original episode I was able to work through and still be happy. This relapse is so hard. I’m not sure if I’m experiencing depersonalizations or not because when I read up what it is most people say they feel like they are in a dream. I don’t feel a dream as much as I don’t feel normal and don’t feel like me. I question everything I do from the time I get up till the time I go to bed. Before this relapse, would I have sat down and watched tv, would I have said or done this or that. Everything is a question and nothing feels normal. I don’t feel like me. Even being with my partner I wonder if I act/ think the same way. Would I normally say this in a text, would I normally sit beside him or was it okay if we didn’t cuddle every second we watched tv? When we slept before did I turn durning the night or did we cuddle the whole night? Did I give him a good morning kiss every morning? When I go to text him something my mind instantly checks to see if this was something I would have done before and then reminds me how everything feels so weird. Not just with him but with everything. Sometimes I look at my dog and I don’t even feel like she is the same. I’m just so worried I’m so focused on being normal again that I’ll never actually feel like me. Like I’ve been too far in this hole to get out.It just sucks and feels so wrong. I feel like others have days or moments when they get to feel somewhat normal around their partner but my rocd thoughts/ feelings just won’t let me. It’s been almost 4 months of waking up and not feeling the way I want to and feeling like a stranger. I’m in therapy, I’m doing other rocd work and it’s just sucks. I feel like I’m never going to be able to look or think about my partner and just be okay again. I don’t even care about feeling the in love feelings, I just want to feel like I’m fully committed to us and him again. He is my person and rocd is trying so hard to take him from me. I guess any tips for depersonalization that has lasted a long time?
My OCD has been a little better since I started this whole journey with therapy. The one thing I’m really struggling with is my anxiety. It used to be that my anxiety was fueled by OCD thoughts. It seems to have shifted though to just everyday life. I don’t even feel like I’m thinking about anything yet I have fear everywhere. I feel like I don’t know how to tackle this as it’s new territory. Living with this all day long fear has really started to take a toll depression wise. Just curious if anyone else has had a period like this. Any tips would super help.
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