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I used to deal with this so intensely I became agoraphobic last year. I promise just small exposures to these thoughts will help. I occasionally deal with it but that’s because I do compulsions every now and then; still working on recovery. I’d say it’s 80% removed from my life, I just have to do the last 20%.
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I feel I’m also becoming agoraphobic and I don’t know how to handle it. Any advice?
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@hopeful for hygge My biggest advice is gonna be tough. I’d try to go outside regardless of the fear as much as possible. I spent months in my house wasting away due to fear and I regret it a lot. When you do those little outside exposures make sure you do self care too. Remind yourself why going out is fun, buy yourself a snack or simple just take a beautiful walk even when it seems scary. Know that it will take time for the anxiety to calm down, could take months but trust the process and be compassionate toward yourself. You got this.
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I can relate to what you’re going through. I’ve been experiencing depersonalization / derealization (DP/DR) for almost a year and a half now, and I think it’s made my OCD worse and probably causing more OCD themes too. It’s a dance between the two with OCD making depersonalization worse and depersonalization making OCD worse. Currently doing EMDR therapy. Do you have a good therapist who knows how to treat DP/DR? I can share some of my grounding / coping skills if you think that would be helpful.
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Hey depersonalisation has become a sort of OCD theme around my harm ocd as I’m constantly questioning what do I feel and if I’m feeling guilt, empathy etc for the past year it’s been tough it feels constant, I feel like I’m spectating life and not actually living it feeling disconnected from people around me and the world not just myself, it’s a shitty feeling and it’s Lonley. Like you I started questioning constantly am I going crazy or am I developing schizophrenia or something like that, so I can relate 100% I hope this helps just try to let yourself be and whatever comes naturally happens try not to live in fear of your emotion.
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Yes yes yes. It’s so frightening. Constantly feeling outside of my own body, not recognizing myself, and feeling like I’m a bunch of different people. I’m with you in solidarity. I wish I knew how to make it better.
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I go through DR when my ocd flares up. It took 4 months but now I feel like I’m finally coming back.
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- 18w
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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- 16w
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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- 7w
I recently got diagnosed with OCD back in May of this year. What started it was a month prior, I took an SSRI which triggered an extremely intense couple of days due to panic attacks I’ve never had before. I’ve never had panic attacks but pretty intense anxiety. That’s when I started experiencing DPDR and hyper awareness. I’m good some days, but other days it’s so so hard. Especially because I have no one around me that understands. The DPDR and awareness of every feeling, thought, and just overall awareness of my existence gets really overwhelming. I feel like I’m losing my mind. It’s really hard to sit with my thoughts especially when they’re on a constant loop of every little thing I’m thinking and doing and on top of that feeling like I’m in a dream. I desperately just want to go back to how I was 4 months ago, but I know that’s just not possible right now. If anyone has experienced this and is doing much better now or even currently experiencing this please let me know! I need someone to relate to lol
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