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- 3y
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- 3y
I’m sorry your having a rough time, But life is worth living! You’ll get through it and it may be tough but I’m sure there are many ways you can still have intimacy. Hang in there ! There’s always hope ❤️
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- 3y
Hey, it's okay to feel upset about that - it must have been a distressing realization, and if you want to feel sad for a while, that is completely alright. Jealously/envy is okay and normal, too. It's alright to feel the way you're feeling, but try not to lose hope - your life is still very much worth living. There are ways to experience intimacy that don't involve sex directly, and even those ways that do aren't necessarily closed off to you. There are treatments for chronic pain, and the doctors mentioned that the discomfort could become less with time. Perhaps it is a bit like OCD...different of course, but a bit similar...in the sense that it may never vanish completely, but with time and treatment, it could fade to a point where it is manageable and doesn't interfere with your decisions. Especially given all the advancements happening in medicine right now, treatments for pain could also become much more advanced and sophisticated with time; we could see some remarkable developments even just in the near future. No matter what happens, though, I am sure that there is a way forward. Don't give up on life.
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- 3y
Thank you. I hate the fact that out there some people can choose how to live their life; and some others can only adapt; and stay in pain. There are a lot of ways in intimacy yes, but I will never feel the right pleasure without suffer... i just want to be normal sometimes
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- 3y
I’m so sorry you are going through this. Although I can’t say I have the same physical problem, I can totally relate to the feeling of frustration and disappointment knowing that I may never have the amount of sex and intimacy that I desire, mainly due to the fact that my current partner doesn’t want it as much as I do, and have always struggled to find someone who can understand and fulfill my sexual needs. I too have always wanted a life full of intimacy as you say. I start to envy other couples who have a great sex life. So I can totally understand your feelings of envy and being so frustrated at not being able to experience that.
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- 24w
since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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- 19w
I’m so tired. I’m so tired. I’ve lost so much weight due to this mental illness. I sleep 18 hours a day to escape these thoughts. I grieve my old self so much. I miss crushing on men, I miss loving men, I miss dressing up nice and get compliments from men, I miss listening to music and daydream about my dream man. I miss wanting to get married and have my own kids with my dream husband. All of those things… I’ve desired them so much and I’ve daydreamed about them so much. My OCD is telling me that it’s all fake. I miss my old desire and love for men. I’m so tired of being alive. I’m so tired of seeing multiple posts where people who apparently suffered from SOOCD became their fears. I’m so tired. Cause y’all probably didn’t even have ocd in the first place idc. I will say it again, has it been someone with pocd or harm ocd and their obsessions/fears became true NONE of y’all would’ve had the same reaction. Stop normalizing soocd obsessions becoming true. It is someone’s worst nightmare. People are out here attempting because of it.
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- 19w
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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