I fail to see why sex should be allowed at all if its responsible for so much pain and suffering in the world throughout history.

I caught chlamydia because I was stupid and had unprotected sex with 6 people in the last 6 months and people have made me feel like utter trash for this even tho I was the one who got checked out. I informed all six people. I went to the clinic and opened my legs. I hate condoms they make me sore no matter what type and they don't feel as good. But on future I will use them. I have a boyfriend now, after this is sorted and he's been sorted I will have unprotected sex with him hopefully forever. But never am I having casual partners again. My vagina is on fire, someone tell me your premiscuous sex stories because I feel like such a gross slapper even tho I wouldn't judge anyone else for making this mistake.

So I don't know if others know about the controversy pornhub and other adult sites have got themselves into, but it's giving me a lot of mixed signals. More bad than good, and reading about what's been going on makes my skin crawl and it makes me shake. A YouTube channel had uploaded their own commentary on the matter and I couldn't watch it. I went straight for the comments for what people has to say. A lot of them, like people do in society used to watch porn, not being aware of what was behind the scenes including myself. All the video checking these sites have done, with half of them being connected to r#pe, child exploitation, fetishizing groups, raw footage and illegal counterparts getting passed tags were all seriously concerning. Even verified videos didn't provide the fullest of consent with hired actors and actresses. Things like this are why I hate that I was exposed to porn, even hooked on the matter like a drug. There were videos that I've seen that were over the top, exaggerated, taken to extreme measures whether real or animated. At the time of browsing videos like these, my limited knowledge wasn't focused on whether or not the videos had consent or not because I along with many I assume has the impression that they all consented to the actions. Otherwise, why would they be uploaded to legal sites that "care" about the issue..? Hearing that a minor being assaulted with the video being put on these sites without her consent, kidnappings, molestation, or videos that don't even correspond to pornography ending up on these sites is triggering enough. While I don't necessarily blame pornhub entirely for horrible videos like these being posted all around, I do blame them for enabling the factor of hosting it in the first place. I feel sick. I feel dirty. I feel wrong. I feel like I've took part in something that harmed people. I feel like people who unintentionally just wanted to watch what they were attracted to, were unfortunately connected to something deeper than that. Worse than that in a sense. How could I along with many other people enjoy content like this when we are NEVER sure of the people in the videos doing it for fun or being hurt? How will we ever be sure of their ages in the video? How will we ever be sure if it's raw footage or not? I don't think viewers will ever know. But to see that adult sites are being hit with things like this is a form of a win, in the sense that victims need to be protected. This hurts both victims and sex workers of the adult material. And the viewers. I've wanted to cut pornography out of my life completely because I wanted to be lifted from an addiction and better myself. I wanted to go back to reality and not use the internet for erotic thrill. It was one thing to have used this as unsure experience in my adolescence, but it's not something I want to continue with anymore. I feel so disgusted with myself. I feel like I've done something horrible with watching videos like these just because I thought it was something I had to do to fit in and grow up with.

No offense but the idea of allowing your thoughts to run though your mind without resistance is complete and utter bullshit. It has made no difference in the amount of chronic sexual intrusive thoughts that run through my damn mind. I’m not a gay person, yet gay and incestuous thoughts run through my mind 24 fucking 7. It makes me sick to my stomach...all I want out of life is a beautiful wife and kids. Maybe i deserve this. Maybe I’m just helpless...