I fail to see why sex should be allowed at all if its responsible for so much pain and suffering in the world throughout history.

Sex itself isn’t bad. It’s how we reproduce. It’s the misuse of it that is horrible.

You’re going to get castrated?! I think you’re not in the right mindset. Not trying to trigger you but sexual abuse isn’t just actual intercourse. It can be a multitude of things. And your thought life will still remain the same regardless. Your brain will still have these thoughts. You have OCD.

And sex is a wonderful thing. It brings life to the world. It can make you feel good. It’s healing. You’re stuck in these thoughts. Your OCD mind has you convinced you will do something terrible. Please find a specialist to talk to so that you can begin treatment. And stop reading about this on the Internet!!!! Of course you’re going to see the negative things online, that’s what sells.

This may be reassurance but I’m going to tell you this anyway. Sometimes, rape victims have an orgasm or feel their bodies respond sexually when they are raped. It doesn’t mean they enjoyed it. It doesn’t mean that’s what they wanted. It’s just the body responding to sex. So if you are aroused and in the process have a bad thought, you still may feel arousal anyway because your body is in that state.

You believe that’s the only way because your ocd is telling you that you’re a monster. You have to learn how to battle these thoughts. I had the same ones that hit around 15 and bothered me so badly. I don’t have them anymore but I know how hard it can be. You have to take control of this before it controls you.

Honestly they say that the majority aren't sexual abusers but it seems like that the ones that dont commit it are in the minority.

I dont know, reproduction is what creates sex abusers. I wouldn't want to create a child to have them suffer or to bring suffering unto others. I really need to get castrated asap, if for no other reason than seeking to minimize any damage that could occur.

Wait.....what?!?!

I just want to kill my sexual urges.

I am, but I cant see myself enjoying sexual activity at all. I just see a life of either self imposed solitary confinement (doesn't seem that bad to me as I'm pretty introverted) or pay the price. I believe that to treat my OCD or whatever issues I may have I would need to remove myself from sexuality. If this is going to be something I will live with for my entire life, I think I would feel better knowing that I had no ability to act on sexual desire

I agree with Ashley85 Please go get the help you need. Trust the dr on how to treat your ocd because your catastrophic thinking is messing with you.