I don't know why sometimes I love my s.o so much and then sometimes I feel like I must hate him. I struggle with understanding whether a fulfilling and healthy relationship is possible with ocd or whatever other trauma I have going on. I'm not seeking reassurance I'm just venting because I hate feeling this way and not knowing how I'm going to feel the next day or even heck the next hour.  

Relationship OCD

"Pure" OCD

yes omg my mood switch every hours it's so exhausting, makes me want to live alone in a cave forever 

Fr and the constant back and forth between they don't deserve me or I don't deserve them, vs the happy we deserve eachother and we're lucky . 



TRUE but then I can't stand being alone so it's like fuuuuuuk .-.