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- Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Every OCD is very uncool.
Yes, I think a lot of us with ocd, phobias, or anxiety otherwise do this. I have suicidal ocd and often think how other forms might be easier. Or how I wish I were afraid of airplanes, because I could avoid them and just not fly. I was actually talking to my NOCD therapist today about this. But I don’t think the theme matters much, because you don’t know how hard something is until you’ve experienced it. You don’t know how often triggers come up until they’re your triggers. I think sometimes the grass can seem greener but I’m sure it isn’t. I also feel oddly grateful sometimes for what I go through, because there are forms I would never want to deal with.
I’ve had almost every theme and they all are painful but pocd is unbearable.. I’ve never experienced pain quite like this in my entire life. You feel betrayed by your own body.
This makes me so sad to hear for you because I know how CONFUSING and PAINFUL it is. Just remember that you are allowed to separate thoughts that you think and unwelcome thoughts that you cannot stop. POCD is like a freight train coming into the station with no brakes while you are standing on the tracks trying to stop it with your bare hands
OCD tends to latch on to whatever you would consider the most painful , so really any OCD theme. But yes, POCD sucks ass.
TW: pedocd I agree that they are all probably the same level of difficulty but I definitely hear you with some of them being WAYYYY less acceptable or palletable. People think it’s really cute that I have to eat my food in a certain order, they definitely do not think it’s cute that I’m crying in a mall bathroom because of intrusive images of graphic child porn running through my head, that’s a really really tough one to explain to even your closest support system.
“No, I am not attracted to children. I just graphically obsess over the nature of being attracted to children for large quantities of my day in full distress” yeah you are not winning with the average joe there 😓
God bless and help you. I know how hard OCD can be . Just know that you are so definietly not alone. I wish nobody should have this illness. Best wishes
@Janajana You as well friend ❤️ blessings and health!
ocd is like the clown from "IT", it shapes itself into your worst fear so anyone can see their fear as the worst. It really sucks.
**tw; mentions of pocd and harm ocd** Sorry in advance for the long post. I feel as if I should address pocd, because talking about it to people who understand seems to help me a lot. I’ve always had OCD, however, I didn’t get this particular theme until I was 17 (I’m 19 now) and a senior in high school. Pedophilia was briefly mentioned in my psych course, and my brain went absolutely nuts telling me “what if I’m capable of being that.” Similar things have happened in my past; OCD tricked me into believing I was a murderer when I was around 7 because of crime segments on the news, and OCD later tricked me into thinking I could be a serial killer, but pocd arguably is the worst theme to have and all of you that have it are literally the strongest people alive. On top of that, I’ve only ever been attracted to older adults, yet this theme still persists. I just want to go back to the version of me that I was before I got this theme. If I had a do over in life I would have never taken that course, it straight up ruined my life. I will literally take any other theme over pocd at this point honestly. Thank you for reading if you’ve gotten this far, you’re a very patient person lmao bless.
Do some OCD sufferers legit have these themes as their absolute biggest struggles? People always say like “ugh I can’t have things not in order, my OCD gets in the way” or something, but really whenever I hear anyone say that I assume there’s no way they actually have legit OCD. I’m just curious, do you know if these are in fact the biggest struggles for some OCD sufferers?
I’ve had many ocd themes before, but none of them have given me as much guilt, anxiety, and shame as POCD has. All these groinal responses, thoughts, feelings, etc. makes me sick of myself and wish I wasn’t me. I feel like all of this is gonna stick with me for the rest of my life and I’m gonna remember all of these things for the rest of my life. I feel like I need to tell my future partner all about this and all about the groinal responses that I have had. I just want all of this to be over and I wish that this POCD never happened. I constantly wish that I could go back to my past OCD themes, they tortured me but compared to POCD I want them back. I wish everyday too that a new theme will come along and all these things will just go away. I feel like my ocd is different than everyone else’s, I feel so alone and I’ve been suicidal over these things and I just want them to all end
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