BradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y
LSea2021LSea2021
- Date posted
- 3y
If you love her you can choose her!I know the OCD feels really really real, but it is not you. If you love her, choose her.
BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y
I want to choose her but how can I if this is nagging at me all the time. The worst part is it feels like it’s always been there but now it’s just getting stronger and stronger. Idk
LSea2021LSea2021
- Date posted
- 3y
@BradOCD Have you shared your struggle with her at all? I was feeling exactly the same way, but I told my fiancé what I was going through and letting that wall down was really helpful. It’s also scary! But not going through it alone (while in a relationship) is such a big help.
GnathalieGnathalie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I totally understand - that's really a horrible feeling but just try best as you can to sit with how uncomfortable it all feels. and remember - OCD is OCD, don't get bogged down in content - when I'm staring at a tap that I know is off and I'm trying to leave my house, the tap is not the problem, OCD is the problem. :) The thoughts are not the problem, OCD is. Tell it "maybe" and try your best to carry on with your day regardless of whatever nonsense OCD is shouting :)
BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y
But I feel really convinced now like it’s just who I am now!?!?
BradOCDBradOCD
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- 3y
Can ocd really do this to someone
ocdmanocdman
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes
BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y
@ocdman How can you be so sure
ocdmanocdman
- Date posted
- 3y
@BradOCD Because I literally experience false attraction the attraction that I think I’m experiencing literally changes right before my eyes when I calm down
GnathalieGnathalie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
OCD is all about doubt and it attacks the things we love and care about the most- that's how it keeps us in its grip! So it makes sense in OCDs awful way that OCD would attack your relationship as it's clearly so dear to you. I'm so sorry you're going through this - it's really really difficult I know but try not to wish the thoughts away so much, try to say "yeah, whatever, maybe" and although that feels impossible the more you say maybe over time the easier things will be. :)
BradOCDBradOCD
- Date posted
- 3y
When i calm down it just feels like I’m okay with it all? Like it makes it more confusing?
GnathalieGnathalie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
OCD can latch onto anything, even feeling calm "why do I feel calm now? Shouldn't I be anxious? What does this feeling of calm mean?!" This is OCD doing its thing once again. It's really tough but you've got this! ✨
BradOCDBradOCD
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- 3y
@Gnathalie Idk what to do! 😬every emotion I feel makes me feel bad
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- Date posted
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