Can someone please respond to this.. Has anyone ever acted on a thought? I have and I believe it to be a horrible sin, as it is mentioned as one. How do I forgive myself? It is a really weird thing because when it happened I was in such a dark place. I honest to God should have been locked up. I had been self harming and attempted suicide around this time too. I had expressed to my mother how mentally unwell I was and she didn’t take it seriously at all. I don’t want to blame her but I know for a fact if I was taken seriously it wouldn’t have happened. My mind was screaming at me to do things all day long in a way I can’t even explain. My ocd is still with me every day but 9-10 years ago when this was happening it was BAD. I Didn’t have thoughts of my own. Only ocd. Id take sleeping pills to keep myself asleep and id have dreams of doing bad things. So I convinced myself I needed to see if I enjoyed it so I did it to see. Turns out nope. Didn’t like it it was just ocd. And that sin has cost me my mental sanity and love for myself. If anyone has gone through this how did you forgive yourself? Do you think god will forgive you? I know I’m not supposed to ask these things but despite what it says I actually get peace from reassurance. And I know I’m not the only one.

Religion & Spirituality OCD

orhyan7

Date posted: 3y

Hi, I’ve struggled with this too. I’m a Christian, and have struggled with Spiritual OCD as well. The Bible says that “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” ‭‭1 John‬ ‭1:9‬ ‭ESV‬‬ Confess it, know God forgives you, and then forgive yourself. There is hope. He doesn’t see sin anymore since Jesus Christ died for your sin and rose from the dead. There is hope in God. I really hope this helps!

Cat_attack

Date posted: 3y

My fear is what if the messiah is not real? What if there is just God and the messiah hasn’t arrived yet. In that case I’m going to hell because what I did is listed as one of the worst sins punishable by death according to God in the first testament. 🥺💔

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Aw, that's heartbreaking. I know your whole situation been there too. Just do this - if you even wish you were sorry about it (despite feelings and despite OCD saying "but what if I'm not sorry" garbage) then rest assured you are forgiven. Try to keep doing nice things for yourself/hobbies and you will see over time you won't think about it so much. I struggle with personal forgiveness too and find the best way is to no longer attempt to reason it out. Trust that God forgives you!! Not because of what prayers or compulsions you did to "make" him forgive you but just because forgiving is what he does as a daddy. God knows all about OCD! He loves you so crazy much!!

Cat_attack

Date posted: 3y

Thank you 🥺 Truth is I AM sorry. More than anything in the world. A lot of times I wish I could have a near death experience just so I can see him face to face and say I’m sorry. I say it but it doesn’t feel like he fogives me. I read this quote that says “Before the sin The devil tries to convince you that there is no reprocusion. And after the sin The devil tries to convince you that you can not be forgiven.”

Cat_attack

Date posted: 3y

Thank you BOTH for commenting it actually helps me 🥺😭💗

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Focus on what you love. Let God handle it. You are totally forgiven despite what your OCD says!!

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