- Username
- Magzzz
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I’m the same way. Always have been. There is nothing wrong with it at all. I’m covered from head to to toes in tattoos did a lot of time in prison. I made my mistakes in life but I always felt compassion and felt sorry for people. Even people who have done me wrong. I don’t know why I’m like this. I feel maybe for people like us especially me, I’ve seen the worst things in life and have had some really bad things happen to me. I’m not one to compare, trauma effects people differently. Don’t charge the person you are. Yes you will get walked on and used and screwed over. I do all the time and I continue to let it happen. Don’t ever ever change who you are. Emotions suck I hate them. It’s the way God made us. Cry don’t have thicker skin who cares what people say. If you ever need to talk please I will talk to you. Things will get easier. One day you will realize that all this crap and bad things that happened in life were worth it. And I would do everything the same if I were giving the opportunity to start my life over. Not sure how old you are but I was an 80’s. Baby I’ve been through a lot and I will help you get through what your going though. I don’t know everything but I’m a good listener
It’s rough. I have been through childhood trauma and now ocd which can be traumatic as well. I believe God made me this way for a reason. Maybe to be empathetic of others, i don’t know but I’m judged for it all the time, used, stepped on and it hurts because I have the biggest heart. I was born in 1999 I turn 23 in March. These past few years of my life have been hell but I do believe it has made me stronger and I’ve learned alot. It just hurts because I want more in life and I feel like I’m going through this because I deserve it. My past haunts me all the time because when I was younger I was dumb and made mistakes that I didn’t know I was making at the time but I do now realize it and I hate myself for not knowing back then otherwise it wouldn’t have even happened or be a problem. I was a stupid teenager. But anyways I’m growing and learning but I’m just so freaking sensitive and I feel like it’s more of a curse than a blessing. It’s frustrating to be honest. I really appreciate your help and thank you for understanding 🙂
I think I know what you mean, I cry when someone is being nice to someone else, at commercials, songs, good weather, I just always feel like I have this enormous pool of emotion inside of me. Over the past years I actually started to find it really beautiful that I am this way, I feel everything deeply and that comes with some side effects like feeling hurt/upset easily. It’s a shame that people criticize you for this gift. It has happened to me too, luckily not too much, but recently I have really started to defend myself, because what emotions arise is really within no one‘s control and it’s sooo harmful to tell anyone how they should or shouldn’t be feeling. I have noticed though that I could learn something about soothing myself when feeling so much, I noticed self-compassion exercises are slowly starting to work. It looks a bit weird but I often hug myself even when I am out and about, or start stroking my own head and validate to myself that it is difficult to be feeling this way (don’t know yet if that’s reassurance though). I am pretty sure things would be easier if we didn’t feel so intensely but that’s not really our decision. I have noticed that when I experience less anxiety, then I don’t feel quite as fragile and emotional, but I don’t know which leads to which.
That makes a lot of sense. I just feel my emotions are too strong. If someone is mad at me or sometimes I’ll walk into work and I say hi to a coworker and they don’t sad hi back I get so upset or even angry because they didn’t say hi back. I think overthinking has a lot to do with it too because I tend to overthink a lot of situations and then it stresses me out which leads to me getting overwhelmed and I cry. A lot. Almost everyday I cry about something and it’s not for attention or anything I’m just really sensitive. But I really should practice self compassion because I do tend to hate on myself a lot and self loathing which leads to more frustration and stress because I hold myself to a high standard and when I don’t meet that standard I beat myself up for it
Same! I can't even listen to music without getting emotional. I remember a time when i was yelled at by a teacher for doing some mistakes and despite my rational side screaming at me not to cry i couldn't hold back. I also get hurt by words easily and i realized that what made me care about my appearance so much was the bullying i endured for looking different at middle school and the complex i have with "intelligence" from the bullying during highschool by both teatchers and students. Add the constantly stressful environment at home and voila! An emotional mess was created.At least i know that it's not necessarily our experiences and rough ways we grew up that makes us, but our choices on how to be now. It's okay to be emotional as long us you are a good person that doesn't make others feel the way others made you feel in the past. Better emotional than cold hearted.
Omg I relate so much. I used to get yelled at a lot for the dumbest stuff and I would instantly start crying. I was bullied a little bit in school too and lived in a stressful household because my grandma and step dad hated each other and I was in the middle of it hearing both sides and it stressed me out because I loved them both. Also my mom was very strict and she takes our her stress on me with her attitude and then I get an attitude it causes more stress in the family and then I go in my room and cry thinking my family doesn’t love me and so on. Overthinking probably but it hurts a lot. I feel like I have a big heart and when it gets stepped on in the slightest by friends or even family, I get super emotional. I have been told it’s ok to feel more emotion than nothing at all but I get judged for it so I rather repress all of it instead which isn’t healthy either
@Just Breathe ❤️ It's the people that constantly judge that should repress their judgmental nature, no you. Be yourself no matter what other say and you won't regret it. Trust me, the feeling of being your authentic self is the first step to a fulfilling life ❤️
@LydiaK Absolutely I agree
Hey guys so i wanted to see if this could possibly be ocd or maybe something else idk lol and im not trying to like get reassurance km just curious cuz i’ve never thought about this until now. So my whole life especially recently since i’ve moved to college, i always analyze whether or not i fit in with people. I’ve always been pretty hard on myself my whole life aboit feeling different than my friends or just feeling like i don’t understand how everyone can just be themselves so easily and not anxious or how i think people are just more likable than me. i don’t know if that makes any sense, but i feel like i’ll hang out with a group of girls and then afterwords i’ll be like why do i feel like i wasn’t the same as them or why do i feel like they’re better than me etc. just constantly trying to figure out what’s wrong with me and why im different then them. I think that may have been ocd itself or maybe not im not sure. recently i’ve been struggling with trans ocd and my mind often likes to think back to that and how my whole life i’ve kinda worried about how i felt different than all the other girls . it scares me cuz it makes me think that maybe i really am not a girl and i just haven’t realized it until now. but now im realizing that those worries from my whole life might have just been ocd to begin with. idk if any of this makes any sense and im just rambling on and on but im just curious to see what u guys think
It’s so weird how OCD just comes about with no explanation, out of nowhere. My issue has been feelings. I have moments of hyper focusing on feelings, trying to figure them out, and it’s exhausting. Logically, I know that what I’m going through with the things happening in my life (relationship ending that was abusive, my father just getting diagnosed with dementia, etc) would make anyone feel the way I do. But I keep trying to fight my feelings. “Normally, old me” would embrace them and let them be. Ever since my OCD returned, I can’t help but fixate on them and stress even more. It’s almost like my emotions and the way we are as humans in my mind has become even more of a problem than the problems themselves. Can anyone relate? I am doing my best with ERP. I definitely helps. But I’m still waking up not feeling like myself and it hurts.
Hey everyone. This is my first post here and it’s probably going to be a long one because I guess I feel comfortable enough to be open here. I need help. When I first got diagnosed with OCD, I figured it only impacted a small part of my life. I thought I was only affected with compulsions and obsessions that dealt with contamination, tangible perfectionism and the obvious intrusive thoughts and that’s it. Well, I’ve come to realize that most of my thinking has been impacted by OCD. At this point the only way to describe how it feels to me is a forest of thorny vines growing in place of my mind or maybe through and around my brain constantly growing every-time I give into this type of thinking (which is basically all the time because I wasn’t aware this was OCD). I’ve definitely felt it more recently, but I know it’s always been there from what I recall from past memories. I got diagnosed not so long ago with OCD and I was happy to because it explained this thing I knew was wrong with me but I didn’t know how much it will and has impacted me in the past. So, I think I’ve created a matrix in my mind or strengthened the OCD thought patterns because now I feel like my OCD impacts everything I do. And I guess I’m saying I need help here because maybe you guys will be able to see it, maybe validate me and point me where I can get help. I’ve been telling the people around me, I think my thinking is disordered and I need help but I don’t think they really understand the amount it’s affecting me or grasp what I meant when I say “I Need Help”. I did have a therapist before but because of a insurance change, she can’t work with me anymore and I’m not sure when I’ll get another (just to clarify). Back to the matter, the past couple of months I’ve been in my head just thinking and thinking. About everything. To the point where my head starts to hurt or until I feel sick of thinking about it but I can’t. I find that’s my obsessions and compulsions (other than the need for order [which can also be mental]) are very mentally based and I find myself ashamed of them so I hide them so maybe that’s why the people around me don’t feel my need for getting help as much as I do. Anyways, examples of this have been, -constantly thinking about what’s the purpose of all of life and the hidden messages in life -feeling like if I don’t do everything perfectly then what the point or being very mad at myself -being obsessed with how I present to the rest of the world sometimes even in close relationships -having calculated movements and actions (having to move my body a certain way or it doesn’t feel right) -obsessing over an absolute truth -questioning friendships and other relationships - obsessing over achievements or failures -obsessing over people -obsessing over decisions and outcomes because I want to make the perfect decisions I could go on and on but basically it’s just a lot of thinking and ruminating and obsessing to the point where people tell me I look like I’m some where else all the time. And I’ve started to feel like I find comfort in it now. I’m also diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I feel like it’s all just OCD. And same goes for my dissociation. I feel like they all root from my OCD. I’m so tired of feeling like this all the time and without my therapist I feel like I’m stuck here. I can’t make decisions, I’m never present, I can’t make or keep friendships/ relationships, everything impacts me deeply because I create a emotional obsession to it, I can’t just be without questioning everything and I’m constantly in my head. I’ve also started getting high all the time because I feel like it’s the only way to escape my brain but I’ve felt like it’s getting out of hand. I’m starting to lose in any type of hope of getting better. Does anyone have an advice for working on OCD by yourself or identifying when it’s OCD (especially mental obsessions and compulsions) so I can start to chip at this boulder that’s weighing down my life and energy?
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