I don’t wanna break up! I am up crying all morning. I ruined my own birthday yesterday! I want to love him! I have my period but even before it was sorta like like! I held his hand one day and cried!!! Why would I cry for a man if I didn’t love him!! Why!? I know I would’ve walked away! Can ROCD truly make you believe you found truth and make you not love your partner!!!?? Can it honestly get this bad!!!!

I’m in a similar position, woke up this morning with so much doubt. This has always been a thing in every dating stage which has caused me to break up , with this one i’ve been dating for like 2 months or so , i’d say it’s to early to have love but my feelings are confusing, they seem intense and i like being with her but when i start thinking be that alone or with her i tend to go off her, What i’m looking for is that feeling of attraction , although it’s only been 2 months i beat myself up and question every little thing because it’s not always there. What also confuses me is the fact i’m a man , and have stopped masturbating because i feel it makes me feel more down. So therefore i have a strong sexual desire for her , so when i feel like i don’t like her and i still want to have sex with her, it feel like maybe i don’t acc like her it’s confusing.

I have terrible ROCD as well. I can relate to this. You have to just remember that you have the infinite power of choice. Love is not a thing that is there or it isn’t. Love is a CHOICE. I highly recommend watching “Awaken Into Love” on YouTube. They saved my relationship. I learned about ROCD and that’s how I found out what I was truly going through. Please watch them if you don’t already. I wish the best for you and your partner.

Yes awaken into Love is amazingly helpful and made me feel less alone. 💜 would recommend to anyone suffering from rocd and relatio ship anxiety 🥺💜💜