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I have terrible ROCD as well. I can relate to this. You have to just remember that you have the infinite power of choice. Love is not a thing that is there or it isn’t. Love is a CHOICE. I highly recommend watching “Awaken Into Love” on YouTube. They saved my relationship. I learned about ROCD and that’s how I found out what I was truly going through. Please watch them if you don’t already. I wish the best for you and your partner.
Yes awaken into Love is amazingly helpful and made me feel less alone. 💜 would recommend to anyone suffering from rocd and relatio ship anxiety 🥺💜💜
I’m in a similar position, woke up this morning with so much doubt. This has always been a thing in every dating stage which has caused me to break up , with this one i’ve been dating for like 2 months or so , i’d say it’s to early to have love but my feelings are confusing, they seem intense and i like being with her but when i start thinking be that alone or with her i tend to go off her, What i’m looking for is that feeling of attraction , although it’s only been 2 months i beat myself up and question every little thing because it’s not always there. What also confuses me is the fact i’m a man , and have stopped masturbating because i feel it makes me feel more down. So therefore i have a strong sexual desire for her , so when i feel like i don’t like her and i still want to have sex with her, it feel like maybe i don’t acc like her it’s confusing.
It’s like I don’t want to choose him anymore… everytime I mention about breaking up to my friends I start crying badly… why would I cry if I didn’t love him? I cry really badly… it’s even hard to talk to my partner now… 😞 it’s like I have no interest… but yesterday I was able to say I love him and give him a kiss… I think the reasons why I have the break tendencies is bc I am so tired of fighting. All I do is cry when I have a chance to be alone… I want to love him again. If you read my new post you’ll see what my friends were talking about to me yesterday
I really need someone to talk to… just to vent… if not.. i just need get this out and everything can ignore if they want.… I don’t know what to do… I know I’ve been severely obsessing for 2 year about if I truly love my partner or not for 2 years… I am severely saddened about how I feel right now…. Before I knew I wanted to love him and stay.. it felt genuine like I was really mentally sick… but now… my partner looks like a stranger to me, I get annoyed at him easily even if he’s just sitting still… it’s like he’s a different person to me and I hate it… I wanted so badly for me to know if I love him or not… and it’s like our time together never happened… I don’t cuddle talk or do much of anything anymore with him and it bothers me… I feel no emotional connection with him… maybe his flaws are too much for me… 😢😢 I don’t know…. I want to love him again like before but I completely feel like I’m lying to him and myself… I don’t wanna end my relationship I really don’t want to… I do t know how badly ROCD can get but… this is the worst I’ve ever had… my relationship is gonna die… 😢 I’m sitting here quietly crying while he is asleep….
How can I believe that this is ROCD when there are some proof? Like… I know my ROCD could have exaggerated things.. I know when I am calm I love him and hug him. But this morning was bad.. I started crying when he told me he loved me… before he got of the car I hugged him super hard… I can’t shake this off… I wanna accept his flaws… when I don’t overthink I know I love him.. some parts of him I know I dislike and I told him what thoses things are…. I know relationships go thru rough patches.. I wanna fix it! It’s like my brain is trying to force me to run away.. My friend told me that my relationship is fine. It’s just both of our mental states are to blame for why our relationship is struggling…. I just want my relationship back.. if we break up.. I don’t know if I can handle another relationship again.. I can’t… I just don’t want to
Oh god someone please help me!! 😭 I need help!! I don’t wanna break up! But it’s like I really want to and due to me believing I don’t love him!!! 😢😢😢😭😭😭 please!! Did anyone recover from thinking they didn’t love their partner of ROCD anxiety and depression!?!? Am I just too afraid too break up is that it!!!!!!!!! My 12 year relationship is gonna die!!! Please!! I don’t wanna break up!!!!
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