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I have terrible ROCD as well. I can relate to this. You have to just remember that you have the infinite power of choice. Love is not a thing that is there or it isn’t. Love is a CHOICE. I highly recommend watching “Awaken Into Love” on YouTube. They saved my relationship. I learned about ROCD and that’s how I found out what I was truly going through. Please watch them if you don’t already. I wish the best for you and your partner.
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Yes awaken into Love is amazingly helpful and made me feel less alone. 💜 would recommend to anyone suffering from rocd and relatio ship anxiety 🥺💜💜
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I’m in a similar position, woke up this morning with so much doubt. This has always been a thing in every dating stage which has caused me to break up , with this one i’ve been dating for like 2 months or so , i’d say it’s to early to have love but my feelings are confusing, they seem intense and i like being with her but when i start thinking be that alone or with her i tend to go off her, What i’m looking for is that feeling of attraction , although it’s only been 2 months i beat myself up and question every little thing because it’s not always there. What also confuses me is the fact i’m a man , and have stopped masturbating because i feel it makes me feel more down. So therefore i have a strong sexual desire for her , so when i feel like i don’t like her and i still want to have sex with her, it feel like maybe i don’t acc like her it’s confusing.
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It’s like I don’t want to choose him anymore… everytime I mention about breaking up to my friends I start crying badly… why would I cry if I didn’t love him? I cry really badly… it’s even hard to talk to my partner now… 😞 it’s like I have no interest… but yesterday I was able to say I love him and give him a kiss… I think the reasons why I have the break tendencies is bc I am so tired of fighting. All I do is cry when I have a chance to be alone… I want to love him again. If you read my new post you’ll see what my friends were talking about to me yesterday
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Right now I feel like I’ve realized something awful. Like maybe… I never truly loved my boyfriend. Maybe in the beginning I was just excited to be in a relationship. Maybe I confused that excitement with real love. And when the intrusive thoughts started, maybe it wasn’t ROCD — maybe it was the truth hitting me. I write this and it feels real. That’s the scariest part. It feels calm and clear and like maybe I’ve just been lying to myself all along, holding on because I “should,” not because I truly want to. I can’t remember how it felt to love him — and that makes it worse. I feel so disconnected, so numb, like nothing makes sense anymore. Every time I try to feel something for him, it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m playing a role, not being myself. But the thing is… I’m not at peace. If this was really the truth, why does it hurt so much? Why does this “realization” come with panic, guilt, emptiness, and so much fear? I don’t want to hurt him. I don’t want to lose him. But I also don’t want to keep living like this — doubting myself, my feelings, and my past. I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle I can’t break, and I’m scared I’ll always feel this way. Has anyone ever felt like this before?
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- 16w
I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.
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I feel like I shouldn’t be with my partner anymore, but I have no clear reason why. I feel sad every single day, I have a constant heaviness in my chest, I cry often, and I start arguments with him. I can’t remember the good memories. Everything feels distant, fake, or tainted. I don’t know why I love him — and all my thoughts tell me that I never truly did, that I only wanted to feel something, and now I finally see the truth. The worst part is that it all feels so real. I feel lost. I feel numb. I feel guilty. I can’t feel love right now, but some part of me still wants to hold on, still wants help. I don’t want to make any decisions right now. I just want to know I’m not alone. Has anyone else gone through this?
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