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Haha yea Leah, I went to one house party before a football game and I literally sat there the entire time basically doing nothing as I watched people play beer pong for a while, then left for the game. I figured it would be kinda fun since I was with people who I knew from high school, but the parties are just excuses to drink a lot of alcohol and I felt out of place. I feel you with the not knowing half the songs, and that’s another reason I don’t care for clubs or anything. The people who know me would say I’m not quite an extrovert but also not quite an introvert. I mean I‘m probably be more introverted, especially because I used to be super shy and have severe social anxiety as a little kid, but getting through that helped me become more extroverted, and now I probably either don’t say a word, or talk way too much haha
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- 6y ago
Yes, Yes! I completely relate to this. I don't do things most people do in my high school. I don't enjoy parties, I don't drink, I don't use drugs. I have nothing in common with them, I'm mostly alone at school. Then I don't go out too much, so I stay at home most of my free time. I spend most of my days caught up in my own head, and I feel so disturbed with ocd. My interests are completely different, and I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything, it's just not who I am. It can get a bit lonely sometimes, though.
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- 6y ago
Yea I have a really close group of friends but they’re in my hometown and I’m at a different university, we still talk every day through discord though so I can always trust they’ll be there, but it’s not the same as seeing them in person
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- 6y ago
I can relate, just be true to yourself
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I use to do this as well and still do from time to time. I am very introverted. I do have to say though that their are really nice friends out there that know how to have fun without partying, drinking, or doing drugs! I found several when I really started looking in the right places and started giving people a chance. I mean their is always the chance you meet someone weird along the way ? but isn’t it worth it to meet friends that can really last a lifetime??
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- 6y ago
Michael, I feel that so much! Especially with the morning thing. I’ve recently been convincing myself that going outside- for ANY reason will help lol. Or else I would just stay in bed all day. Parties allude me so much though. It’s just a crowded and loud conglomeration of people. I don’t even know the songs half the time. Not trying to sound holier than thou, but I would 1000% rather watch 800 episodes of law and order by myself in my bed the entire night. I’m not introverted or anything I just don’t understand how they’re fun. I’ve gone to so many that everyone has just said “wow that party sucked”. I literally?? I don’t get it. Anyways.
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- 6y ago
Haha yea something like that, I’m a freshman so I’m optimistic that I’ll find people I click with eventually, but I have to admit I haven’t done much looking after a sort of fallout with the last group of people I hung out with first semester (which could be its own huge post of me explaining the situation). Essentially I felt like I wasn’t being valued by my friends as much as I valued them, but considering I value my relationships with others so much more than the average person, that shouldn’t have been something that made me feel the way it did. My ocd went wild with intrusive thoughts and ruminating about my friends constantly and eventually I confronted them saying how I felt, and got mixed reactions, from caring and concerned by one person, to trying to act like they want to make things better (but not actually changing anything), to another person almost seeming offended, with how clingy I can be at times and how they are “busy,” when what I was asking to be changed didn’t involve more time, but things like more communication and inclusivity when making plans.
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- 6y ago
Or if someone doesn’t**
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- 6y ago
Yep sounds about right! And yea, I’m not confident or anything but I like talking to people and will strike up conversation!:) I guess I’m a mix too. But it feels like no one else I know is...like me? Or maybe being on a college campus I see the same kind of people everywhere, and the ones that are like me are also at home watching law and order. Idk
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Sorry for the long replay ?
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- 6y ago
No worries! Yea friends can be really disappointing like that sometimes. You did the right thing communicating how you felt, but sometimes people just take that as being attacked. I really hope you find a new crew that really takes your feelings into account!!
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