Im super scared that i wont recover it's killing me rn

I get that. Yesterday all I could think about was how I am going to have OCD my whole life and constantly have to dealing with these thoughts. I was told to not look so far into it. Stay more in the present. I know it isn't easy by any means. Have you addressed this in therapy? I wish I had better advice, but that's all I have.

I know it’s not easy and I haven’t started therapy but use your s.o.s and breathe I’m scared of not recovering as well but we must

Actively working on recovering is a better step than obsessing over possibly not recovering abs getting upset over it.

You will recover

I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. I believe that most people in EPR and working on recovery have fears that they will not recover - and the OCD is trying to convince you that you will not recover. When you are in that anxiety, lean into the intrusive thought, perhaps say, maybe I will, maybe I won't but I am going to keep trying because I do not know what the future holds, but I do know that listening to the OCD is not my choice. We never know for sure, and it is leaning into the uncertainty that we need to do as hard as it is. You can do this! You are stronger than you think! I hope this helps you.

Another OCD doubt/fear! All it does is lie to us. It would be beneficial to learn to sit with that discomfort of “maybe I won’t recover, maybe I will” and not fall into any compulsions.

Totally understandable! Seriously, it seems like everyone with OCD has this fear at some point. Which makes sense: OCD tries it's best to undermine any ground you think you've gained. So when you finally find something that helps, OCD will remind you that *you* are unique and what works for other people won't work for you, that *your OCD* is different (maybe it's not OCD at all!) so treatment is pointless. OCD thrives on our desire to be sure. So in ERP we starve it of certainty by letting those thoughts/feelings exist without fighting. That is the exact same tactic to use here with this fear of never recovering. It is a terrifying thought, I know, but you *can't* know what your recovery will look like. You don't have a crystal ball. All you can do is follow the path that's in front of you. You're here because you found some resonance with NOCD and thought it might help. So try it! I can't tell you what your life will look like in 5 years, but I can tell you that what you're experiencing is normal (at least it is around here! lol) and that you are not alone, not by a long shot. Check out the support groups and the YouTube Live videos. You will see just how "not-alone" you are. <3