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Same! Do you feel like then you can’t trust if it’s your gut and intuition or if it’s just ocd thoughts that are meaningless…. I always feel like I have a feeling something is off or my bf is cheating or secretly gay or some other betrayal even though I have only evidence that says it’s he opposite… I like can’t trust myself and discern between intuition versus being ridiculous
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Being on this app really makes me feel heard because from the things people are posting you can see most of it is mental and the stigma around ocd is never really mental
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Yes I have these scary thoughts all the time and they seem so stupid because in reality my husband treats me really great, he loves and cares about me. It's like I try to find little details to overanalyze just to bring me back to ocd cycle. I really want to stop it but it seems impossible no matter how hard I try. The thoughts just keep coming back like they have to convince me that something is wrong
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Oh gosh I could have written these comments myself! I’m exactly like this with my wonderful husband. Married for 37 years, he’s never done anything wrong at all! But my ocd is constantly trying to find something to prove he may have betrayed me in some way or another. My brain is suspicious about the most innocent of things. We know reassurance doesn’t work but I do resort to it occasionally but ocd always comes back and pulls it apart and tries to find holes and what ifs. It’s a nightmare and wish I knew the answer.
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Yes exactly, I know my thoughts are irrational, extreme and it's like my mind tries to find fault in everything he does. Even if he shows me love and attention, support and tenderness I am afraid something bad will happen behind my back, he will betray me and I will be dumped and alone. I know these are just hypothetical thoughts but they keep coming back all the time. The worst part is that they get stuck there for hours, pushing me to deal with them like I have to otherwise my thoughts will come true. Why do we have to go through this and not be able to relax and let go?? It feels so devastating and sad to spend your life consumed by these thoughts...
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I’m exactly the same. It’s almost impossible to keep it all in your head when it’s making you so anxious all the time. I just get the feeling like I’m in denial or burying my head if I don’t say something. Thing is when/if I eventually give in I feel better and get a short period of respite but then a new fear will come in and the cycle starts over. Nightmare! All this from a thought!! There’s never any evidence just a stupid thought!
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Everyone read the book “overcoming unwanted intrusive thoughts” by sally winston !!
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Me too when these things happen and I feel like no one understands I don’t need correction I need support and understandment. and it really isn’t about them
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It is sad and such a waste of our time but like you I too get stuck an when I eventually move on it will be replaced by another irrational scary thought. Do you seek reassurance too?
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Of course and this is the worst part... Sometimes my husband is really patient and reassuring but some others he gets irritated by my accusations especially when he is already tired or anxious about something else. I know it is difficult having to handle my problems with other daily issues that come up and all these destroy our family's peace. I feel so horrible and guilty for saying all the scenarios I create out loud but sometimes I just cannot do otherwise...My head will just explode unless I tell him my thoughts, I just can't keep them inside... I don't know how would I react if he had this type of Rocd and accused me of things...
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Yes that's all about...why do we get so stuck in these thoughts and can't just move on and proceed? I feel like I am stupid and cannot think logically, my mind drags me to this circle over and over again...
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I spend ages talking to myself logically but to no avail. I get brief moments where I can see clearly that it’s all rubbish but then I slip back again. It’s like our brains are really sticky I guess. It’s really frustrating when I have no reason to feel insecure. My husband has never put a foot out of place and the silly thing is I really do trust him but my ocd is continually trying to scare me with intrusive thoughts. It would be great if there was someone on here who had overcome this and could advise us.
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Yes I would like to listen to people who have merely overcome this even the tiniest improvement would seem really precious to me. Some moments when I feel a little better I feel like a little child wanting to go out and conquer the world full of happiness and hope. On the other hand, when Rocd hits me everything turns black and have no courage, only sadness and desperation. If you would like we could chat for our issues maybe create a forum to discuss with other people struggling with Rocd! Thank you for your responses!
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@zoed No problem, so good to talk to someone that genuinely understands. Not sure how to go about that. Wish there was a private message function here.
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Thanks for the recommendation.
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- 24w
How do you guys get past the anxiety? I feel like my thoughts are the only thing that control my mind. So often I feel like I should just leave my partner even tho I love them so much because I just feel like these thoughts are too much. I over analyze everything. I feel so stuck and defeated. I just want to be normal. I feel so toxic for the thoughts that I have
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For the past 3 months ish I’ve been struggling on and off with this anxiety and fixation over my relationship. To wondering if i still have feelings for an old friend, wondering if i actually love him, wondering if the thoughts are all real and im just trying to cover it up with ocd. It sucks, when im talking to my boyfriend i feel fine. The words i love you and talks about the future come naturally. I can’t imagine myself with anyone but him. But this constant rumination on my relationship is KILLING me and I’m scared it’s going to ruin what i have. It makes me numb and disconnected which therefore makes me believe the thoughts even more. They just feel so real sometimes and it’s so scary like why can i not just enjoy it. We’ve been together for a while so i know there’s periods of like feelings ebb and flowing but this is so much more. It’s just constantly sitting on my chest with anxiety. My compulsions are coming on this app, looking at photos of us and confessing it to him. He’s very understanding and helpful. I love him so much. I just need help / I’m also just starting new meds as well ..
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Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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