Today I tried to resist compulsions and stay as calm as I can but then Rocd attacked me again in a massive way. I kind of feel like my mind is foggy and messed up.most of the time so get triggered seems easy. Every little thing I hear and seems suspicious I will overanalyze it for hours because I am so afraid of being betrayed, dumped or someone do something bad behind my back. These thoughts have stuck inside my mind in such a level where my days are spent like that. When I get an intrusive thought it feels so catastrophic and horrible that I feel I can't do anything. I am stuck there thinking and analysing. It is so difficult to handle it, I feel so scared and alone in this...

Same! Do you feel like then you can’t trust if it’s your gut and intuition or if it’s just ocd thoughts that are meaningless…. I always feel like I have a feeling something is off or my bf is cheating or secretly gay or some other betrayal even though I have only evidence that says it’s he opposite… I like can’t trust myself and discern between intuition versus being ridiculous

Being on this app really makes me feel heard because from the things people are posting you can see most of it is mental and the stigma around ocd is never really mental

Yes I have these scary thoughts all the time and they seem so stupid because in reality my husband treats me really great, he loves and cares about me. It's like I try to find little details to overanalyze just to bring me back to ocd cycle. I really want to stop it but it seems impossible no matter how hard I try. The thoughts just keep coming back like they have to convince me that something is wrong

Oh gosh I could have written these comments myself! I’m exactly like this with my wonderful husband. Married for 37 years, he’s never done anything wrong at all! But my ocd is constantly trying to find something to prove he may have betrayed me in some way or another. My brain is suspicious about the most innocent of things. We know reassurance doesn’t work but I do resort to it occasionally but ocd always comes back and pulls it apart and tries to find holes and what ifs. It’s a nightmare and wish I knew the answer.

I’m exactly the same. It’s almost impossible to keep it all in your head when it’s making you so anxious all the time. I just get the feeling like I’m in denial or burying my head if I don’t say something. Thing is when/if I eventually give in I feel better and get a short period of respite but then a new fear will come in and the cycle starts over. Nightmare! All this from a thought!! There’s never any evidence just a stupid thought!

Everyone read the book “overcoming unwanted intrusive thoughts” by sally winston !!

Me too when these things happen and I feel like no one understands I don’t need correction I need support and understandment. and it really isn’t about them

It is sad and such a waste of our time but like you I too get stuck an when I eventually move on it will be replaced by another irrational scary thought. Do you seek reassurance too?

Of course and this is the worst part... Sometimes my husband is really patient and reassuring but some others he gets irritated by my accusations especially when he is already tired or anxious about something else. I know it is difficult having to handle my problems with other daily issues that come up and all these destroy our family's peace. I feel so horrible and guilty for saying all the scenarios I create out loud but sometimes I just cannot do otherwise...My head will just explode unless I tell him my thoughts, I just can't keep them inside... I don't know how would I react if he had this type of Rocd and accused me of things...

Yes that's all about...why do we get so stuck in these thoughts and can't just move on and proceed? I feel like I am stupid and cannot think logically, my mind drags me to this circle over and over again...

I spend ages talking to myself logically but to no avail. I get brief moments where I can see clearly that it’s all rubbish but then I slip back again. It’s like our brains are really sticky I guess. It’s really frustrating when I have no reason to feel insecure. My husband has never put a foot out of place and the silly thing is I really do trust him but my ocd is continually trying to scare me with intrusive thoughts. It would be great if there was someone on here who had overcome this and could advise us.

Thanks for the recommendation.