- Username
- ben ✨
- Date posted
- 5y ago
To be frank, the question is asked wrongly. This is what makes to OCD going in it's circles, that you worry about a thought and has to prove that thought wrong. The trick is to stop playing
You go to an OCD specialist, share your symptoms, and they tell you that you aren’t and that you just have POCD, then work on your POCD. I was abused by an actual one when I was a child. He felt NO guilt, shame, remorse, anxiety- nothing negative. He didn’t feel like he was doing anything wrong. He was happy that he was one and took pleasure in harming kids. No one on here thinks that because all I see is high anxiety and depression if they have POCD.
Never give up. Never block any thoughts. If I’m correct is one of your themes that you could become the perpetrator? Do you have the courage to face and admit that. I had to among my many other themes. I’m still heading out the dark tunnel. But I’m also not blocking anything. These triggers must be processed, must be faced, must be allowed to be there as long as they want. It is horrendous but blocking our brain will not allow it to move past them. I wish you well in your recovery.
Also read up about false memory OCD maybe that's where you are stuck
@nica I share your history. You are not what he did to you. You’re stronger than you know
A pedophile has pleasure you have anxiety
I’m so sorry to hear that! You are so strong
Thank you, Soniclen! I needed to hear that today :)
Y'all this pocd is so stupid. I know myself. I'm a 21 year old woman who has literally been into older men since i was in elementary school lol. And I've been into my age and older too in women since 4th grade when i figured out i was bi. BUT, in all those years, I've never thought about children in the same manner. Kids actually always highly irritated me. Also, when someone I've dated acted too childish, i wasn't into it. The only thing I've been into is being the dominant over an ”innocent” acting person during sex. And this also goes with the daddy kink. BUT i never actually thought about kids in regards to these things. Literally nothing adds up to me wanting to seek out kids, but now, because of intrusive thoughts, I'm suddenly worried that I'm a pedophile? It's so stupid but here i am and i feel so gross and I'm so done. I don't want to worry anymore. I swear I'm a good person, i just want to believe it.
Someone try and help. My worry is people think I'm a pedo when I'm not and that I'll get sent to prison when I'm innocent I've never harmed a child and never would. I worry I make even the child itself uncomfortable because when stuff like toilet habits are mentioned I go bright red and panicky cause I look shifty, and imagine if a parent asked their child if someone touched them inappropriately, they might find it funny and joke around saying yes and now I'm super worried that this post will make people think I'm a pedo but I swear on God's name I've never harmed a child and never plan on doing so. I fucking hate ocd so much I can't live a normal life, I can't stop thinking the worst possible situations and scenarios.
What’s the difference between a pedophile in distress or ashamed and someone with pocd
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