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To be frank, the question is asked wrongly. This is what makes to OCD going in it's circles, that you worry about a thought and has to prove that thought wrong. The trick is to stop playing
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You go to an OCD specialist, share your symptoms, and they tell you that you aren’t and that you just have POCD, then work on your POCD. I was abused by an actual one when I was a child. He felt NO guilt, shame, remorse, anxiety- nothing negative. He didn’t feel like he was doing anything wrong. He was happy that he was one and took pleasure in harming kids. No one on here thinks that because all I see is high anxiety and depression if they have POCD.
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Never give up. Never block any thoughts. If I’m correct is one of your themes that you could become the perpetrator? Do you have the courage to face and admit that. I had to among my many other themes. I’m still heading out the dark tunnel. But I’m also not blocking anything. These triggers must be processed, must be faced, must be allowed to be there as long as they want. It is horrendous but blocking our brain will not allow it to move past them. I wish you well in your recovery.
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Also read up about false memory OCD maybe that's where you are stuck
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@nica I share your history. You are not what he did to you. You’re stronger than you know
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A pedophile has pleasure you have anxiety
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I’m so sorry to hear that! You are so strong
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Thank you, Soniclen! I needed to hear that today :)
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I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... Dr disrespect was accused of inappropriately messaging and sending explicit images to a minor, and trying to meet up with them at twitchcon... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped messaging her... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless... I dont ever want to ever be a monster...
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So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?
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