how do you PROVE you’re not a paedophile

To be frank, the question is asked wrongly. This is what makes to OCD going in it's circles, that you worry about a thought and has to prove that thought wrong. The trick is to stop playing

You go to an OCD specialist, share your symptoms, and they tell you that you aren’t and that you just have POCD, then work on your POCD. I was abused by an actual one when I was a child. He felt NO guilt, shame, remorse, anxiety- nothing negative. He didn’t feel like he was doing anything wrong. He was happy that he was one and took pleasure in harming kids. No one on here thinks that because all I see is high anxiety and depression if they have POCD.

Never give up. Never block any thoughts. If I’m correct is one of your themes that you could become the perpetrator? Do you have the courage to face and admit that. I had to among my many other themes. I’m still heading out the dark tunnel. But I’m also not blocking anything. These triggers must be processed, must be faced, must be allowed to be there as long as they want. It is horrendous but blocking our brain will not allow it to move past them. I wish you well in your recovery.

Also read up about false memory OCD maybe that's where you are stuck

@nica I share your history. You are not what he did to you. You’re stronger than you know

A pedophile has pleasure you have anxiety

I’m so sorry to hear that! You are so strong

Thank you, Soniclen! I needed to hear that today :)