When you’re hit very low, to the floor with your OCD. What do you do, any small step that can try help you get out of the pit. How do you gain confidence to move forward or get better. Any small tip or first step to try & take? Just feels like I don’t even know what thoughts are real in my head. What thoughts I listen to or let go. Causing so much paralysis & pain & don’t know where to go or what step to take to even gain a slice of relief.

I feel the same I’ve been reading the Bible more and talk to God always

Hi wayley! OCD can be so debilitating at times. A first step you can take is to acknowledge how you are feeling. You can say "This feeling is very uncomfortable and it makes sense I don't enjoy it. However, it is here, so I will practice not fighting it or judging it". Keep in mind that progress is not linear. Remind yourself that if you've already made some progress from when you once were, it means that you know how to get back on your feet from the old pattern you might have fallen into. The best way to address OCD is ERP therapy. Have you tried ERP yet? It might also be helpful to check out NOCD's support groups, you may find others have dealt with an OCD theme similar to yours. They can then provide you with tips and tools that helped them when their OCD https://www.treatmyocd.com/support-groups "One of the most effective ways of combating these obsessions is not to fight them at all, but to accept their presence. A thought is not a prediction, instruction, or call to action. A thought is a chemical and electrical event in your brain, neurons firing this way instead of that way. You have weird, unpleasant, or violent thoughts simply as a result of having a brain, which means you can think about anything." - Jon Hershfield A book that has helped me a lot is the Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD by Kimberly Quinlan. I highly recommend it.