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Yes very... bc all i want is the complete opposite. I literally just try accepting the thoughts. But even if I accept them they are still always there.
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Yes! In fact, yesterday I watched a movie with Lily James in it and I have always thought she was beautiful and I have aspired to be her, etc..but I had this thought that said “I would marry Lily James” and it felt so real. But then I let the thought come and even exposed myself by telling a few trusted friends “I only want to be with a man but I would marry Lily James” and then we joked about it all for a while. I’m trying so hard to not let every thought and feeling mean anything but gosh it’s so hard.
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Yes! I think the reality is that we have to try to accept that it’s okay to think the same sex is beautiful and to be willing to say things like “You know what, I actually would marry Lily James” but that means nothing because I only want to be with a man. In fact, the whole movie, I was looking at the main guy in the movie and dreaming about marrying him. These intrusive thoughts and feelings are so annoying but I’m holding out hope that this won’t control my life or each of your lives forever
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@Jen22 my brain always does this! As a kid I had a laptop and would look up pics of my fav celebrities when I was bored and I just found them pretty, but damn my brain is taking it as evidence and saying I was attracted to them.
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Yes, happened to me yesterday & i freaked out. I wish I knew how to fix it.
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This is the longest these thoughts have sit with me... in the past it was easier to brush em off. Idk why this is so hard.
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Honestly @Jen22 there are times when I find this stuff so hard and still so surprising with the amount of ways it tries to convince me!
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Passed two days my brain has been saying “your gay, just admit it”. “Just say it” like in these little voices! I have NEVER had a crush on a girl. EVER. I don’t get why I cant shut that voice off. Literally wish I had a switch!
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Hey @Sunshine1 I’m not sure what religion you follow (I’m a Christian) but I completely understand that pain and 100 percent relate to what you mean. If you ever want to talk privately through social media or text, let me know!
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In fact, if any of you want that, let me know! I would love to chat!
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Thanks @jen22 that means alot! ??
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Thank you @Jen22!
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yes all the time. it’s been happening to me all week and idk how to fix it. some days i can just ignore the thoughts and other days i have to give into the compulsions or i feel like i’m going crazy
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That happens to me all the time . All the time I worry “is this just gay realization?” And then my ocd goes crazy
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@Sunshine1 it’s so annoying isn’t it?
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Me too, accepting the thoughts only works so far but the thoughts are always there
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Yes my brain is always looking for proof & “disproof” if that makes sense!
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Life is crazy- i have always said God will never give you anything you cant handle- however why is God giving me this.
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Can sexual orientation ocd make you act on your fears and make you have same sex experiences ever and then after the experience realize that’s not what you are or want?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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