- Username
- 745
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Just want people to respond
I don’t honestly care if it’s people telling me to shut up, or stop posting, or anything… I just want someone to talk to me…
I don’t honestly care if it’s people telling me to shut up, or stop posting, or anything… I just want someone to talk to me…
I see your posts and I hear you, the way you describe your thoughts is what everyone with ocd is going through (just different themes). What I can read between the lines is that you have a hard time accepting the thoughts which you have to do if you want them to stop bothering you
I just had an intrusive thought of a real event (I have real event OCD) and it’s like all of a sudden the anxious feeling is gone… it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious and I don’t like it
What’s worse is that the intrusive thoughts are suddenly gone as well… like the intrusive thoughts and the anxious feelings are gone and replaced with a “chilly” feeling… I don’t like it at all… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way
745, I also make posts no one is commenting on. We are all sufferers here and we don't have the right to expect others to reply. More over, I made suggestion to you, but you stopped reply to those, you only shared more thoughts you had and as far as I understand seek for reassurance and reassurance is not what you are supposted to ask for and it's also not what we are suppose to give one another.
I’ve been trying to do what people have been suggesting to me… but it’s not working… it’s feeling worse and worse and now its making me feel like I’m cold without the intrusive thoughts…
To the other comments I totally get where you are coming from but I think we all know how hard it is to break the cycle and someone that doesn't know where and how to start is of course overwhelmed and searching for reassurance as it works like a drug.. Without enough knowledge about ocd, reassurance feels like the answer and it's the only thing that we could cling onto before getting the needed help ❤️
Sometimes when I post and don’t get any replies, I get extremely paranoid that im the only one with this problem and that no one can help because they don’t understand what im going through and just find me crazy, and I start thinking im a traitor to this app and that i’m just deranged. I feel like a lost cause and im scared that if I tell anyone what I went through, they’ll just be driven away from me and avoid me. It makes me feel so isolated and depressed.
I’m not necessarily looking for reassurance. Just venting I guess and I don’t mean to sound like a baby. But I just feel like I’m meant to be alone and it hurts. Like not only when it comes to friendships but relationships as well. I’ve always wanted to be a wife and mother and ik those aren’t big dreams but they have been my dreams since I was a teenager. I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough for that. (there are many reasons behind that thinking; i’d just rather not get into it) I know I have people on here to talk to to an extent and I’m very grateful for that. But y’all don’t know me on a deep level and ofc I don’t expect you to. Idk I don’t wanna start rambling. Thank you to anybody who even cares to read this
I need somebody to tell me if I’m a monster or not. Nobody’s replying to my posts and it scares me. Am I too far gone? Why am I so numb? I hate these horrible thoughts, I think. I think. I’m so full of doubt, I don’t know what I want or don’t want anymore. I think I don’t want this. This feels like the end of the road.
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