Hi @TheGift101
I’ve had similar struggles- this is more common than you might think. If you’re from a Christian background, I’d encourage you to read the following:
1. https://garythomas.com/2015/01/05/goddidnttellyoumarryyourspouse/
2. “Direct communications from God take the form of impressions, and impressions can come even to the most devoted and prayerful people from such murky sources as wishful thinking, fear, obsessional neurosis, schizophrenia, hormonal imbalance, depression, side effects of medication, and satanic delusion, as well as from God. Impressions need to be suspected before they are sanctioned and tested before they are trusted. Confidence that one’s impressions are God-given is no guarantee that this is really so, even when they persist and grow stronger through long seasons of prayer. Bible-based wisdom must judge them.” - J.I. Packer, God’s Plans for You. There are many Bible verses on testing spirits / impressions (e.g. 1 Jn 4:1). Even if strong feelings persist about an impression (which happens to me from my OCD), it could just be from Satan. Feeling are not facts.
3. “1 CORINTHIANS—NOTE ON 7:39 her husband dies. The widow, like any other person of marriageable age (v. 25), is free to marry. Presumably all that Paul has just said of the betrothed applies to the widow as well (vv. 8–9, 40a), and his admonition that she marry only in the Lord (that is, she should marry only a fellow Christian) would likewise apply to the betrothed. To whom she wishes injects a wonderful note of practical wisdom—that people should marry someone they “wish” (Gk. thelō, “desire” or “want”) to marry.” - ESV Study Bible. If you look at the other verses that ‘presumably’ apply, some translations talk about being under no compulsion, and emphasize the couples’ free choice about who (as long as they’re also Christian) and if they marry.
So, I find that the clearest Scripture (i.e. God) says it’s your choice who to marry, and this is what world-class Bible scholars say, then I don’t expect myself to know better than them.
God knows that you don’t know ☺️.