FunkyFred
- Date posted
- 2y
let’s chat
I wanna hear when & where you noticed your ocd really starting? when did it develop for you.. i know it’s not important & i know getting treated is more important but i’m interested lol
WildWestLWildWestL
- Date posted
- 2y
This is a great question! Mine started one day when I woke up and just became fixated on something that had never gone away. I started learning more about ocd and realized I've had episodes during many years of my life that I just didn't understand.
EndangeredHobbitEndangeredHo...
- Date posted
- 2y
I had social anxiety for a really long time, then I started to try and convince myself for months that I had worms because I couldn’t remember if I had sanitized my hands or not after touching my bearded dragon, then I convinced myself I had ovarian cancer for about another month, then I took myself off of my old birth control and completely lost it, I had Pocd for a bit, then I was good, then I stopped my meds and progressively got worse and worse as the months went by. Now I have multiple themes a day hopefully a med change will help as the lexapro isn’t really helping.
FunkyFredFunkyFred
- Date posted
- 2y
@EndangeredHobbit My themes used to switch a lot too.. you got this, & one day you’ll find the medicine that works for you. good luck.
norx norx
- Date posted
- 2y
So I think I’ve always had some obsession over certain parts of my life and hobbies growing up. I realized I like to control little things/big things like planning a trip, following a set agenda, and getting mad it doesn’t follow along. (I also think I got that from my dad lol). I obsessed over my sexuality for a very long time and felt like I needed to decide right then and there about it and it caused me nothing but anxiety, shame, and overall discomfort. Now, I find myself obsessing over the future of my boyfriend. We have real life issues, different religion, long distance, some different view points bc of religion and I have these moments where it causes me nothing but stress worry and I feel helpless. My compulsive answer is to end things but that’s not always the answer!
FunkyFredFunkyFred
- Date posted
- 2y
@norx With me i’ve always wanted everything to be sort of perfect.. and i have lots of control issues, i noticed some tendencies when I was younger but it mostly came out at like 17, my mom brought up a person we used to go to church with and said they were suicidal and after that day, I became obsessed with the fear of committing suicide and would i ever wanna do something like that.. and it just went on and on for a couple months, & then my themes switched from that many others, and i felt so much relief once i finally discovered what OCD was, but now i’m battling ROCD.. because I didn’t want my bf at first initial contact, cus he wasn’t really my type.. i think he was too nice lol, and he was younger than me, but i finally gave him a chance because i was open after getting hurt so many times.. so now i’m obsessing if i rushed things and forced it.. but i really started liking him and felt all the good feelings until one thought turned into a million thoughts and anxious feelings. I hope you’re much better now, wherever you are in your journey i’m proud of you, and thanks for sharing✨
norx norx
- Date posted
- 2y
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