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This is a great question! Mine started one day when I woke up and just became fixated on something that had never gone away. I started learning more about ocd and realized I've had episodes during many years of my life that I just didn't understand.

I had social anxiety for a really long time, then I started to try and convince myself for months that I had worms because I couldn’t remember if I had sanitized my hands or not after touching my bearded dragon, then I convinced myself I had ovarian cancer for about another month, then I took myself off of my old birth control and completely lost it, I had Pocd for a bit, then I was good, then I stopped my meds and progressively got worse and worse as the months went by. Now I have multiple themes a day hopefully a med change will help as the lexapro isn’t really helping.

So I think I’ve always had some obsession over certain parts of my life and hobbies growing up. I realized I like to control little things/big things like planning a trip, following a set agenda, and getting mad it doesn’t follow along. (I also think I got that from my dad lol). I obsessed over my sexuality for a very long time and felt like I needed to decide right then and there about it and it caused me nothing but anxiety, shame, and overall discomfort. Now, I find myself obsessing over the future of my boyfriend. We have real life issues, different religion, long distance, some different view points bc of religion and I have these moments where it causes me nothing but stress worry and I feel helpless. My compulsive answer is to end things but that’s not always the answer!

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