Blegh

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this—mental compulsions can be tricky to tackle. These 2 articles have helped me a lot with rumination: https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ Try to take it one step at a time. You can’t know exactly how you will handle something in the future, so the only way out is to acknowledge that reality and choose to go about your life anyway. It doesn’t have to feel pleasant or easy, and it may feel hard to stop, but the key is practice. Sometimes behavior precedes feeling—we have to choose to stop ruminating first, before the feeling of relief can come. I’m wishing you the best💜

Same!! I’m sorry. I’m just crying over it, it’s so bad for me right now, too.

Aww rumination is the worst. I hate it. Something that has helped me is a form of mindfulness where I try to notice every time I start to spiral and label it as rumination. Then I try to refocus on something I value. It's a practice and it will likely take a lot of refocuses at first to stay refocused, but the practice of noticing and labeling rumination has helped me. I also agree with the comment below about thinking about mental compulsions. It can also help to respond with non-engagement responses to your ruminative worries, like "maybe that will happen, maybe not, but I am choosing to try to move on and do something I value instead of ruminating." Sending support!