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Blegh
Rumination central right now.
Rumination central right now.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with this—mental compulsions can be tricky to tackle. These 2 articles have helped me a lot with rumination: https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ Try to take it one step at a time. You can’t know exactly how you will handle something in the future, so the only way out is to acknowledge that reality and choose to go about your life anyway. It doesn’t have to feel pleasant or easy, and it may feel hard to stop, but the key is practice. Sometimes behavior precedes feeling—we have to choose to stop ruminating first, before the feeling of relief can come. I’m wishing you the best💜
@Killian Thank you!
Same!! I’m sorry. I’m just crying over it, it’s so bad for me right now, too.
@OCDMM I’m sorry too. I was tearing up too. It’s just painful. I am literally thinking all the way into ten years from now what I’ll do about handling a specific sup type. So annoying.
@K-M I’m always living in the future and never in the present, it sucks.
@OCDMM It really does. I try to say acceptance statements and they’re helpful, but then I seem to go straight back.
Aww rumination is the worst. I hate it. Something that has helped me is a form of mindfulness where I try to notice every time I start to spiral and label it as rumination. Then I try to refocus on something I value. It's a practice and it will likely take a lot of refocuses at first to stay refocused, but the practice of noticing and labeling rumination has helped me. I also agree with the comment below about thinking about mental compulsions. It can also help to respond with non-engagement responses to your ruminative worries, like "maybe that will happen, maybe not, but I am choosing to try to move on and do something I value instead of ruminating." Sending support!
Is it just me or is reddit and quora the worst things to be on when you’re in a spiral or just in general when you have OCD? Why is it always mostly negative replies on there or just ‘move on, get over it’ ‘break up’, ‘what’s wrong with you?’ responses? I’ve accidentally made it a habit/compulsion to go on there when I’m freaking out about something and it always makes me worse - especially when it comes to ROCD! It always make me doubt my own thoughts and emotions :(
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
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