Mental compulsions/ rumination

So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget

Username: andrea_sam730andrea_sam730

Date posted: Yesterday

Girl I’m currently struggling with something similar to this like I wish like a few days after when the event happened I could just ask myself what exactly happened but now I’m just afraid that I don’t know. I keep getting thoughts that I’m purposely just blocking out of what actually happened and now I can’t remember, which I don’t think that’s the case. It’s so hard and then your brain starts filling in with the worst case of scenario.

Username: moon027097moon027097

Date posted: Yesterday

i relate to this so much :( it's agony. i wish i could remember everything in full, lucid detail. it would eliminate all my worries. but i guess that's what OCD feeds on, it thrives on doubt and wants 100% certainty at all times. are you in therapy or on meds? (If you don't mind me asking) sorry you're struggling as well 🫂❤️‍🩹 I hope life gets better

Username: andrea_sam730andrea_sam730

Date posted: Yesterday

@moon027097 I know it is such a horrible experience like this is the longest episode I’ve ever been in and yes, I’m currently in therapy. It’s going all right . I wish I could be a little bit better. :/ I recently just started Zoloft and thank you girl. I’m so sorry you’re struggling as well. I’ll be praying for you if you ever need someone to talk to you you can always hit me up.💗

Username: moon027097moon027097

Date posted: Yesterday

@andrea_sam730 this is really so sweet🥹🤍 thank you so much for the offer. and just know that i am here for you too! I hope that as time passes, that the therapy helps you work through things. all of this is not easy. I'm hoping that I can start soon too🫶🏽

Username: BlueberrycowsBlueberrycows

Date posted: Yesterday

I’ve said I wish I could just forget stuff many times on this app lol I’m sure you’ve seen my posts about wishing I had a men and black memory wiper so I can start from the beginning of life … I get it friend .. it sucks but like everyone else has said if you ever need an ear I’m here for you .. nothing will phase me I promise

Username: moon027097moon027097

Date posted: Yesterday

this is very kind of you🫶🏽 if you ever need someone to talk to, i am here for you too🫂 i hope that your weekend was okay🥹

Username: BlueberrycowsBlueberrycows

Date posted: Yesterday

@moon027097 Sure you’re more than welcome ❤️ you deserve everything everyone else has … you’re deserving of love happiness and health and whatever your heart desires … and I’m doing pretty good thankyou I’m done with this snow through 🙄😒 I hope your weekend has been well … as well

Username: moon027097moon027097

Date posted: Yesterday

@Blueberrycows thank you❤️‍🩹 you deserve goodness and joy in your life too. i have never experienced snow before! it's summer on my side of the world, but i don't like the heat so i wish it was winter always. my weekend has been kinda bleh, still struggling through but still fighting too i guess

Username: BlueberrycowsBlueberrycows

Date posted: Yesterday

@moon027097 You want some snow ? I’ll pack it up and send it over to you lol … I don’t like heat ugh lol I’d rather be freezing than burning up because you can always add layers but it’s hard to remove jackets and stuff … I understand having a blah weekend … but just remember you just have OCD you’re not OCD and OCD is not you

Username: monte333monte333

Date posted: 23h ago

I’ve always wanted the ability to remember things correctly. Sometimes my memories mix up and I realize things aren’t the way that I remember. I’m currently struggling with this as well, hopefully knowing other people are going through this can help some. Just know stuff in the past may or may not have happened the way you remember. Sometimes things feel so real even when they aren’t. We’re here for you man.

Username: moon027097moon027097

Date posted: 23h ago

thanks. sorry you're struggling as well 🤍🤍 hope we can get through it

Username: monte333monte333

Date posted: 18h ago

@moon027097 Yeah, I’m trying to get over the fear of uncertainty. And I’m trying to stay on a straight and narrow path so I can be able to make sure everything I do won’t cause me any anxiety in the future.

Username: King silly

Date posted: 23w ago

Can you help me?

What to do when your brain keeps bringing a past real event and saying something else happened (that is horrible) but you know you didn’t actually do something wrong, how do you make it leave you alone?? I just don’t want my brain to keep bringing this up over and over, like it’s so distressing I know you say “maybe I did, maybe I didn’t” but what if it GENUINELY doesn’t leave you alone? Do you do something or?

Username: FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 16w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

Username: ‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎‎ㅤ

Date posted: 7w ago

False Memory Crisis

I went to bed one night in November, and I can't quite say what happened, but I believed that I had a "memory" from childhood. I won't discuss what, but I had "remembered" doing something sickeningly awful. This thing came to me almost as clear as a real memory. I remember thinking something along the lines of 'How could I forget doing something like that?' followed by a feeling of complete horror and terror. I have moments of "clarity" where I can't believe that I'm questioning doing this thing, and it appears obvious that it's false. But now, I'm more than often believing that I did. I am spending 24/7 fighting my head, and it's taking me to dark places. I know this is the worst thing to do, but you don't understand, if this is real then I am a monster and I can't just adopt the 'maybe I did, maybe I didn't approach'. I just can't. I have to know. I'm so scared. My entire life is on the line. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Literally no one. I feel like I'm insane, like I'm a monster, like I'm hiding my true identity from everyone I love. Does this sound like False Memory? Or am I in denial, trying to convince myself this didn't happen? Why does it feel so real? And why do I have moments of clarity? I also had my first nightmare about it last night. Please someone help me.

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