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- 7y
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- 7y
If you would like advice I say seek out multiple supports. Don’t lean on one person because they will break (saying because I’ve done this). She’s like your security blanket and we all have a friend that is, but it can be exhausting for them and that has nothing to do with you personally just ocd can be extremely challenging for loved ones. This is something I’m still trying to work on myself... I think this forum is a good way to start. Someone gave me good advice once that said: give before you take, next time you need her or even before then make sure you are giving her attention before taking her attention. I don’t want this to come off as rude, I definitely do not mean it to be that way. I’m struggling with this myself, so I know it’s not easy. And when ocd hits it’s super challenging to think of anything else than relieving the anxiety, so when it comes it others they may feel secondary. Though it’s not on purpose and I’m sure she loves and cares about you a lot.
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??this is so accurate. No one is strong enough to take on all that our OCD dishes out. People can only take so much before they feel tired. Our OCD tends to be selfish. It’s an unfortunate part of the disease. I say this because my own spouse and mother are at their wits end with me and they are the closest people to me. They want to see me healthy and it’s sad and hard on them when I struggle and have not improved. We have to rely on ourselves a little to get through it. And I would go even further to say everyone’s goal should be to rely on our own strength to eventually accept the fact that we are okay without seeking other’s advice/reassurance to feel that way.
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- 7y
Therapist are amazing, and I’m not saying you shouldn’t go. They are extremely helpful and have helped me a lot. But I think the more you use your tools between the office visits the stronger you will feel :). Because guess what? You’re a badass!
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- 7y
Oh she’s great! But I see a pattern forming there. I go once a week. I need to go less. It will force me to do the things she’s been trying to get me to do all along
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- 7y
I completely second both comments! It’s important to have support, but to put it all on one person is unfair (and selfishly, leaves you dependent on only one person too). I am also a firm believer of the ‘give before you take’ - not only does it help my ocd to focus on someone else’s needs, but it puts deposits in the emotional piggy bank of your relationship for when you will need to make a withdrawal.
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- 7y
my goal is to become my own therapist in a sense, so I can tackle it head on after practice and rely on myself and not put weight on others. But I think it is important to know that those that love you... even if you exhaust them... want you to know you can come to them. There’s nothing wrong with help and a hug, but maybe space it out and learn when you need it or should you go on the forum or see your psychiatrist etc. :)
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- 7y
Emotional piggy bank, I dig haha! I really wish ocd didn’t make us selfish... it just makes it harder... but giving back when we aren’t anxious or trying to switch gears even when we are might be the ticket to help reverse that feeling of helplessness and their feeling of exhaustion.
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- 7y
Absolutely! I am noticing that I’ve relied too much on my therapist. I’ve been in therapy for years and I have got to stop running to her every time I have an episode. I have to use my tools to get better or I will spend the rest of my life like this.
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- 7y
I would recommend asking her about teaching you specific techniques. She’s using them on you. So then maybe she can teach you what they are and how to use them on yourself. Also workbooks could be helpful like homework. So don’t ditch the therapist just maybe tell her you want more tools in your tool box. :)
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- 7y
Sounds rational just let her know how you are feeling and I’m sure she will advise the best way to do it ?
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I ignored the homework.. don’t ignore the homework.... be a good student ??
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Here here!! ??????
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Same here Dee. I’m not very structured ?.
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- 24w
My pocd makes me feel really lonely. I have friends who I love but they also struggle with mental health too, and when I'm there to listen and support them sometimes it's just too much and I feel like a bad friend. I can't help but feel like it's not the same, I know you can't compare your struggles to others but sometimes when my friend is telling me how they feel a lack of motivation and depressed I honestly wish I was just dealing with that instead of that and fearing that I'm a pedophile ontop of it. Like at least the thing you're dealing with isn't something that will make 90% of the population despise you, you know? I know that sounds bad and isn't very mature but I'm always the therapist friend for other people, and I'm the only one actually seeking help and trying to get better and I arguably have the worst thing to deal with. I feel like my friends only want to talk to me when they're depressed or need advice and I'm so tired of it.
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- 19w
I’ve posted this under a comment before, but if anyone has the time to read it and maybe share their experience or tips with me, I would really appreciate it. This is just kind of the reason why Idk if I only have OCD or if I should get checked for BPD aswell as emotional dependency is (as far as I know) not a common symptom of OCD and neither are excessive changes in emotions/moods. I think the worst part my situation is that one of my biggest and most damaging if not destructive obsessions I developed earlier this year was this constant fear that my friend would lie to me about meeting up with a boy she liked (we are both girls and queer, she didn’t know that about me until recently, but I’ve known that she is and we both sort of crushed on each other). Not just lie, but do it behind my back, keep it a secret, and then maybe even end our friendship without saying anything. And the thing is... that basically happened. Two weeks ago she started acting strange one day out of nowhere, and then I found out (through another friend) that he was coming over to her place. We had already talked about this before, I had cried in front of her and confessed how much it hurt me. I know doing that probably wasn’t the healthiest thing, but my emotions completely overwhelmed me in that moment. And even though nothing physical happened between them, it still felt like a betrayal. I’m not saying it was cheating, obviously not, we’re not in a relationship and it is unfair of me to try and tell her who or not to date, but it still hurts. Especially as weeks ago, we already had a detailed conversation about this. She told me she didn’t actually like him that much, and that if they were going to meet again, she’d be honest with me about it. But instead of being honest that day, she said nothing. Worse, she suddenly stopped talking to me, which made me think I had done something wrong so I completely lost my mind. She knows I’m emotionally dependent on her to some extent, so when she goes cold or distant, I spiral. And that day, I saw them talking and going quiet as I walked by, and then she literally turned to walk into a different direction. I don’t know why but it just crushed me. I thought she was mad at me, and I just felt like I was being shut out and lied to. And as I’ve mentioned, later that day, after eight hours of crying, another friend told me what really happened. She even drove me to her place so we could talk. We did talk, but since then, we haven’t had any contact. And it’s driving me absolutely insane. She told me it would be “people-pleasing” if she didn’t try to date him. And I know she’s kind of right, but she still lied to me. She didn’t care if that meant that she would throw away our friendship, or at least she treated it like it was worth less than a potential (!) relationship with a guy who, as far as I know, didn’t even respond when she told him she had feelings for him. It’s honestly devastating. I feel betrayed, discarded, and totally lost and I know I can’t even logically be mad at her as the reason she didn’t tell me is obvious and as a good friend I should just be happy for her, but my emotional side is so much stronger than my logic.
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- 11w
the past month ive been ruminating about a time last year where i hurt a friend by unintentionally bringing up a traumatic memory when i was really drunk, enough that i didnt remember it, so i went 6 months without apologizing until i was worried when they werent talking to me anymore. so they told me when i finally tried to talk to them. i apologized and they told me we were ok now, and still want me in their life, but now they stopped talking to me again and its been 3 weeks, and im terrified that i did something again, especially since they stopped talking to me when i made a mistake before, and wont tell me outright. the event triggered horrible horrible guilt over what i did, mostly guilt About the guilt i was feeling, because its not a normal amount of guilt for a regular person, and eventually my compulsions for confessing and ruminating reached a high point. and when they stopped talking to me again they got even worse . they are aware i suffer from ocd and anxiety to an extent (we've been friends since we were teenagers) so its hard for me to believe they wouldn't do this unless i did something wrong again, especially due to the events of my past mistake. lately ive been wondering, 'have they found out my abnormal reaction to what happened ?' 'did a friend who knows about it tell them?' ive been avoiding asking them if i did something wrong again, because i dont want to make it a habit since i can fall very deeply into that hole of asking for reassurance and i feel even regular reassurance, without the ocd, im the last person who deserves that right now. im scared they somehow found out about my compulsions (which isnt entirely irrational) and i feel the need to apologize to them again. ive been having panic attacks about this. i feel like no matter what i do i cant fix our friendship, and its going to end badly. i feel like a terrible friend, and im too mentally ill to have friendships. i don't know what to do.
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