i hate this feeling.

so i made the horrible mistake of thinking that i didn’t need my meds anymore so i slowly tapered off of them. i was totally fine at first but then 3..2..1 my ocd came back strong as ever. i now have started my meds again and am now in that weird middle area where i’m on the meds but they haven’t kicked in yet. i am really having a hard time as i constantly feel like i am in a state of panic. my chest feels tight and my arms are so tense?? and of course i have that feeling where my brain feels like it’s going to explode from being so overactive. i almost feel like i am dissociating a bit, which is scary. i think the physical symptoms are somehow triggering my brain to ruminate more. ugh i hate hate hate hate this..desperately waiting for my meds to kick in again.

artsygirl

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

What would happen if instead of ruminating on how bad you feel and what might happen , if you just accepted that you don’t know exactly what will happen or how you will react but that this is really hard and then do something for yourself like watch a movie or do a puzzle ?

anonempath

Date posted: 2y ago

@artsygirl i’m really trying to just accept the feeling, but it’s almost like an instinct to just fight back.

artsygirl

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@empathmind I totally get that. I recently struggled with trying to “fight off the compulsive reassurance by trying to think of something else at the time to distract myself. Apparently that was a compulsion too: my therapist told me to just not engage and when you feel like you can’t not engage , what can you do to slow it down? Can you do the compulsion differently , or backwards or can you do it in slow motion? Can you delay it?

artsygirl

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@empathmind Remember not fighting it is actually a sign of strength. You got this. Let me float by and notice “hmm that’s interesting. I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing.” I know easier said than done but I believe in you !

Anon1294

Date posted: 2y ago

Keep reminding yourself it's a chemical imbalance in your brain. It's scientific. Sit with the feeling and let it pass. You always return to feeling yourself in time

anonempath

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anon1294 this was very helpful, thank you <3

Anon1294

Date posted: 2y ago

@empathmind Hang in there 😁

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

I lived this in June. It was terrible. I almost checked myself into a hospital but I didn’t. I was too scared. But I really didn’t know what to do to feel better. I woke up in the morning and was shaking. I took Xanax every few hours. Nothing worked - except walking. And crying. Then my meds kicked in and I slowly got better. It took a few months. I’m still trying to get my shit together but I’m better. Just doing a lot of self- help stuff and I feel like that keeps me more focused on my problems. Ugh.

Eliane

Date posted: 24w ago

Confused

I have a question My OCD has felt almost invisible the past few weeks and now that is starting to stress me out a lot. Right now I am at a point in my treatement where I was asked if I would like to take medication. I told my therapist this week that I would like to try the medication based on how miserable I feel in during OCD flare ups. But now my brain always tells me that I only go throught this treatement etc. to seek attention and that I am just dramatic and should be ashamed of myself for wanting to take this medication. So now I am doubting if I should take the medication or not. Any advice?

Mika05

Date posted: 15w ago

Worried about not being anxious?

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

OCDNoThankYe

Date posted: 13w ago

Medication

Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.

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