I’m baffled at this disorder. Honestly just baffled that one single thought won’t go away no matter how many times I sit through the discomfort and exposures and don’t do the reassuring. I feel a lot better than I did a month ago but the thoughts are still there. Even when I don’t have the thought I think about how I don’t have the thought and start to have the thought. It’s exhausting. I miss my life before.

That phase passed for me... i think its a good sign. Meaning, when i started to think about the fact that i wasn’t having the thought and it brought it on, I was nearing “recovery”. Eventually if you continue disregarding even the “hey im not having that thought” it will stop :) i still have similar thoughts at times, but wayyyyy less frequent. Youve got this. You sound like you’re on the right track try to stay positive

Thank you for that! I also am at the phase of “bringing it on myself” or questioning things like “it’s been a bit since you thought about (insert unrealistic thought). I was worried it was starting the cycle over so it’s encouraging to hear that it’s actually towards the end.

It probably keep occurring because you’re so frustrated with it. But even if it never goes away, can you imagine it becoming so meaningless that really don’t care about it anymore? I’m sure you have tons of thoughts that recur but have no effect on you. Think about how certain memories always come up with certain songs. And always will. The song plays, the memory pops up, and depending on how we’re feeling we either think about it or just go “oh yeah that” and quickly move on.

Keeps*