Having an episode the last few days

These last few days my ocd had been maybe the worst it’s ever been. Currently, I am trying to do schoolwork assignments but I’m having a hard time reading because my mind is reading too fast and just skipping over the words then I feel frustrated like I have to go back and read the words carefully one by one with the same brain effort put to each word. Then I feel like I need to go back and look at how much I’ve read up to now and how much I need to read still and compare and it’s a never ending cycle of frustration. My mind is also racing about negative past events on top of that

Username: KyleKyle

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing this Meredith. OCD greatly affected me when I was in school as well, and it was very frustrating. I ended up starting therapy while in school, and I was able to start focusing on what mattered again! Have you ever done ERP?

Username: MeredithMcDMeredithMcD

Date posted: 1y ago

@ I haven’t yet!

Username: MeredithMcDMeredithMcD

Date posted: 1y ago

@ Thank you everyone! :)

Username: KyleKyle

Date posted: 1y ago

@MeredithMcD - It can be very effective! I highly recommend it. If you have any questions about it, please let me know!

Username: GregJGregJ

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, try to take a deep breath. OCD can get so overwhelming and it used to mess with me while trying to do school work too. Try getting up and going for a short walk and coming back to the reading. Try to read as your normally would, and if you skip a word or sentence keep going. No need to check or make sure you read every single word. Try to agree with the intrusive thoughts and tell them “yep I totally just missed this whole paragraph, oh well”. Fake it till you make it

Username: Lisa LeeLou Lisa LeeLou

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you for sharing what you are going through. I think it is great you are aware that what you are experiencing is OCD. OCD loves to cause as much angst as possible and to attach to things that are important to us. Therefore, it’s not surprising that it has latched on to this. When I am in an episode, I often find it hard to concentrate on anything but the emotions I am feeling and/or the compulsions I feel compelled to do. I’ve had some success challenging this by dealing with one task at a time. This feels less overwhelming to me. Sometimes it will even help if I concentrate on getting something done for next 10 minutes and then take it from there. Perhaps try this with your assignments. Also, taking some time for self-care can help; such as going for a walk or even just sitting outside for a little while.

Username: cyb3rgurl

Date posted: 3y ago

my ocd is got worse again and school starts in 2 days which is gonna make things difficult for me. i am just so fucking frustrated and tired. i tried to resist the urge to go on this app bc i feel like it’s reassurance but i just have to rant. i have been fighting for so long and i feel like this is never going to end. i’ve been rly trying. earlier this month i thought i was getting better but it just went to shit again. i feel so guilty and disgusted w my ocd obsession like why did it have to be those type of intrusive thoughts. like why me. ocd is literally the worst and sometimes i just feel hopeless.

Username: Calove

Date posted: 2y ago

Okay so I’m sitting here trying to relax and read my book. Sometimes I feel like it’s almost impossible to get through more than five pages without some sort of intrusive thought. I need the courage to practice my erp right now no just keep reading and not rereading the same sentence. Ugh OCD sucks.

Username: tiffanylol

Date posted: 1y ago

can’t take it anymore

the past day or so has been awful. my intrusive thoughts and just overall ocd has been nonstop. it’s constant thoughts that say horrific things about people, communities, friends, and a lot of thoughts even say slurs. i feel like i always have to react to them or else i’d be agreeing. for example, this morning i was brushing my teeth and i started worrying about a wisdom tooth removal coming up. my ocd was telling me that while i’m loopy or put asleep i’ll say the horrible things that my intrusive thoughts say. while still brushing my teeth i began to zone out in these thoughts and they were more vivid. they were of me in a dentist chair, knocked out, saying a slur or something, and then a few other random intrusive thoughts popped up. it was then that i stopped zoning out (still brushing my teeth) and my ocd freaked out and said that while “i” was thinking these things, i was repeating them out loud (since my mouth was moving from brushing my teeth). it was at this point that i literally couldn’t remember what had just happened and tried to think or “remember/recall” what the ocd/intrusive thoughts said, causing the ocd to repeat all these horrible things. i just don’t know what to do anymore. i can’t resist compulsions because every time i do, something worse pops into my head. i can’t tell the difference between reality or not within these thoughts. i can’t remember anything. did i just say this? or that? constant questioning. i hope this made sense, and if someone is still reading this far i apologize for wasting your time but i do appreciate it. just really stuck and confuses and panicky right now

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