Kind of having a hard time today . Keep getting thought about something called disassocitive identity disorder , I saw it in a tv show called bates motel awhile ago . My brain keeps telling me that I will get it . It keeps comparing to the time I kept feeling like a boy . And I’m scared that One day I will turn into a different person and all this other non sense it basically telling me I will completely lose myself and go insane or crazy . Trying not react with fear but it’s getting to me a little bit and it’s causing me serious depression while I’m at work . Keep thinking about how I problem won’t make it past 20 years old . It keeps saying that I have no hope in getting better and I will kill myself soon . I also keep getting thoughts about how I feel so alone and how I have no family or friend support I’ve told them I have ocd and sometimes they talk to me about it but most of the time they tell me that I’m being stupid or just disregard it all together . I don’t wanna put my problems on other people so I try to not take it to heart but it really makes me feel like nobody cares . And I feel like if my mental illness was to ever become even more serious than it already is nobody will help me . Not even my family . I will probably end up being neglected and die alone . I can’t take this . I’m at work and I can barley focus. I just don’t know what to do .

Please hang in there. You are not alone. We are all here for you. Please please remember, there are better days ahead. Are you in therapy or reading any good self help books? Or on meds?

There are so many good books you could buy. I am about to start reading a good book for OCD. It is called "The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD". I'm also going to call my dr to up my dosage of my meds. I strongly encourage you to try reading and working through all of this with a good book at least. And see about getting into a regular dr to try a good med. Please, remember you are not alone. Take it one day at a time. One moment at a time. There are better days ahead.

No I’ve tried to contact people for therapy they either didn’t get back to me , to expensive , or too far and I do not have any books

Hi. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I used to have this worry, too. It’s really hard! The best thing you can do right now is exposure! I played this iPhone game once called Mystery Room where a character had DID, maybe try that as exposure. You could work your way up to watching a movie like Sybil or Split. Trust me, OCD is VERY treatable. I thought I would never get over my Harm OCD, and after a lot of dedicated exposure, it went away easily. You’ll get through this. Also I’m sorry your family and friends don’t support you as much as you’d like, but everyone on this app is always here for you! You’re going to make it to 21 and beyond, okay? I believe in you!

Thanks you guys . It’s just these thoughts are really getting to me . I feel like a crazy person . I’m afraid that oneday I will truly lose myself it’s very sad and terrifying

I’m afraid that I will somehow manifest the illness if I didn’t have the anxiety