- Date posted
- 2y ago
ocd in dreams
i had a dream last night that i was out shopping and then a girl i used to go to school with and haven’t talked to in years or even thought about in years came up to me and she was like hey and then started asking if there was any lucky girls or if i had a gf or something along those lines and then i was taken off guard and was like oh um i actually have a bf and then it seemed like she didn’t believe me so i started showing her pictures of him. i could feel in the dream how anxiety inducing that was and my mind started going: am i lying to myself? can other people see something i can’t about myself? and i remember in the dream i wanted to ask her and be like why did you ask about girls and not guys? like what abt me made you ask that? it’s just so frustrating i can’t even get away from my mind in dreams. i know dreams don’t have much correlation with our actual day to day lives but this is sending me down a spiral and i feel so nauseous. because a question in my brain constantly is “what if i’m just lying to myself? what if i’m doing all these things to prove to others i’m straight?” at the same time the dream doesn’t bother me because i know deep down who i am and who i like so it just means nothing to me and it was a blip in my brain but at the same time i can feel myself trying not to freak out.