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I go to God. Not a beauty that is what matches the world view or what I think is good enough. I know that I am good enough for God and he made my beautiful soul and body. The same God that made this beautiful earth also made me. So how could I do this to myself? the beautiful creation that God made is you. Not because it’s what the world says it good enough or even you say is good enough but because God created you in His image.
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- 6y
I used to have orthorexia. It became a full blown OCD theme. I felt like if I ate one unclean food or one processed item I'd develop some kind of cancer and die. I would eat nothing but antioxidant rich raw vegan foods. It was horrible and I was constantly terrified of food.
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I also struggle with OCD, orthorexia, and ED. Intuitive eating is huge. I’m still not fully recovered myself, but practicing it and finding peace in yourself always helps me. DON’T GIVE UP! It is a PROCESS! You’ll slip ofc, but that’s all part of your recovery and completely normal. You’ve got this, stay strong
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- 6y
Yes!!! I have dealt with orthorexia in the past and it has recently become bad again. I also have fears about allergies in certain foods! I only feel comfortable eating food that I always eat and know is safe so this makes going to eat at restaurants or at friends houses very difficult :( you’re not alone!!!
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- 6y
I was diagnosed with Bulimia nervosa 5 years ago, it was an offshoot to my ocd and triggered by anxiety. I would get a obsessive thought in my head about someone or something and it would cause me to feel so sick to my stomach that I would have to make myself vomit in order to feel somewhat better. I would then binge eat and purge again repeatedly until I would faint because I was so weak... episodes like this would last days and would happen at least once a week. Iv been getting help for it and I’m doing great now, my body is so healthy that I just had a baby (there were some complications during the pregnancy and birth) but me and baby are healthy and doing great. Which is awesome considering my bulimia was so bad that my mensural cycle stopped and I was told I wouldn’t be able to have a baby without ivf in he future because of the damage I have done to my body. I would also like to add that I refused medication-treatment for the bulimia and my treatment was all therapy based. As I said though, mine wasn’t triggered by weight gain or body image so I don’t know if my story will help you, but I have almost fully recovered so it’s definitely doable with persistence ? good luck to you with you’re battle, I know how hard it can be
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I have been struggling with anorexia for almost 7 years, but I’m finally at a good place in recovery. I find what helps me is keeping myself busy with fulfilling activities to constantly distract myself from the ed thoughts. Also opposite action!! Do the opposite of what the eating disorder and ocd tell you! Small steps- it takes time and motivation to live a happy life
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- 22w
I’ve been stuck in this cycle for the last month or two and am not sure how to get out of it. Basically, I will work on ignoring the thoughts and not responding or engaging plus limiting/completely eliminating compulsions. After a week or two of constant work, the amount of intrusive thoughts in a day goes down. The anxiety each thought causes also goes down with some, but not all, thoughts passing without notice like they would for a normal person. The thoughts that do stick cause anxiety and make me want to ruminate or do other compulsions but I make sure to limit them. After a bit, I’m in a pretty good head space. This is usually when it goes down hill. I’ll start to question if I even have ocd because some of the thoughts (once again not all) pass without notice. The difficulty resisting compulsions goes down and so does the anxiety, only increasing the questioning. I spend a while questioning if I’ve ever had ocd in the first place and then something sets me off or the questioning itself becomes a trigger and I get stuck back into the same ocd cycle with constant rumination, anxiety, and other compulsions. This lasts for a week or two before I know I need to stop and try and work hard to get back to ignoring the thoughts. And the cycle just restarts over and over again. Does anyone have any tips to stop this from happening? It’s really harming my recovery as every few weeks I dive back into the same negative place I was.
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- 12w
This is gonna be a long one: So a little over a month and a half ago, my OCD started to spiral again. I’ve had ups and downs with it in the past, my main themes often changing. When I was younger it as afraid I’d run away, in middle school it was germs. But as I got older I started having intrusive thoughts of the meaning of life, suicide, and dying, with those fears being my common themes now I’ve gotten a lot better since it started back up, but lately have been panicking because I’ve had intrusive thoughts that my methods of trying to heal are wrong. I’m 21, and for the last 3 years have lacked ambition and haven’t pursued my dreams or things I want to do. I just sleep, work, eat junk food, and play games or watch YouTube on my time off. Things I still love, but after years of living this way, I’ve hit a breaking point and want to start doing more with my life and the people in it Yet, almost EVERY new thing I’ve been trying to do or start, I’ve been having thoughts that they’re wrong or won’t help. Here’s some examples: I’ve started trying to eat a bit healthier, and my brain is telling me it’s not gonna fix me and I’m just avoiding food I like (junk I know makes me tired and sad). Then the moment I indulge in even one unhealthy food item, it tells me I’m failing at taking better care of myself and that junk food just numbs the feelings Same with video games. I tell myself it’s okay to play them as long as it’s not to avoid anything or they don’t take up my life like they have been. The second I do I feel guilty, say it’s cheap dopamine and hindering me from being productive and that I’m numbing my feelings again Same story for everything. Trying to walk and go outside more. Head tells me I’m avoiding being home because it makes me anxious. Then when I stay home it tells me I’m wasting time I could be spending outside or with people I love I’ll wanna spend time with my family or friends because I’ve been a hermit for years and miss spending time with them. When I try to, head tells me I can’t because then I’m avoiding the issues I have and seeking reassurance, and that I need to learn to tolerate this alone. But then when I stay home too long, I get anxious and sad because it does make me happy being around them even if I’m not seeking reassurance, and they genuinely do help me feel better (for example I saw my grandparents last night and talked about my feelings and desire to actually go out and live life, and they helped me understand uncertainty is part of life and I should do things I want anyways and even helped come up with things I may like to try doing. Now my brain tells me it’s bad to get help or open up about my pain) I’ll have racing thoughts in my head and I’ll be arguing with myself over rather it’s better to face them head on, ignore them, or let them run their course. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m feeling guilty and shame for it. As if any attempt at feeling pleasure or doing something that makes me happy is “avoiding the problem”, like I HAVE to focus on my intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and sadness 24/7 otherwise I’m “avoiding/burying it again” I know not to avoid these things and it’s best to confront them (if they’re real problems I have like relationship issues and insecurities and loneliness) and learn to tolerate the anxiety and uncertainty of life and OCD, but my attempts at “helping myself” are quite literally what I feel is currently keeping me so miserable. They’re sucking whatever joy I have in life out, telling me it’s bad, and that I have to feel this way all the time so I can “learn to tolerate it” I’m just so scared of doing all of this wrong, and I think my OCD I knows that and is currently using that to toy with me. I want to be healthier and happier, but then I feel guilt and fear for not being healthy 24/7 and indulging in not healthy things like video games and the occasional junk food. Anybody else ever felt this way?
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- 8w
I have emetophobia. And have been battling with it for about a year and a half now. It stems from a trip I took with my high school where everyone ended up getting the stomach bug. I didnt have it so bad but I ended up feeling nauseous the entire trip (1 week long). And then every time I would eat food I would feel nauseous or unwell and had a strict clean diet for a while. It got to the point where I couldn’t attend school without feeling like I was going to vomit and pass out. I couldn’t even hear the word without getting anxious. I eventually got on lexapro and when that didnt work then I recently got on prozac. I have been talking to my therapist about my anxiety and she had initially thought it was a trauma response from the trip, but eventually came to the conclusion that it was a form of OCD. Like it was where I wouldnt eat something if it touched the counter or I wouldnt eat something unless someone else ate the exact thing a few hours before. I avoid red meat completely because it is slightly raw. I get panic attacks after eating something like a freaking cookie from Crumbl, because I would read reviews about someone getting sick from the uncooked dough. But it felt like before summer I was getting to a point where I could eat most things and not get too much anxiety. Until the other day. On my birthday at midnight I ended up getting sick like stomach flu sick like real bad and ended up in the er. I havent eaten anything since and am horrified to eat something. And my thoughts keep running and I dont know how to be normal anymore. I dont know how to have a relationship with food anymore. I am horrified. I spent the entire year just dreading this one day and it happened on my birthday. I am supposed to be in school but I don’t know how to function anymore. Please someone help, I feel so alone.
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