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I was just watching a commercial and I saw a kid actress and all I was thinking was “hey I think I know them” and I just felt fluttering in my face, chest, and towards my growing and I wasn’t even thinking anything sexual. All I was thinking was hey I think I know them and I was getting the reactions. This is why I think it isn’t just ocd. I find adults attractive and I don’t get the same reaction as I do when I’m just looking at a kid and not even thinking anything bad. If ocd can make you do this I hate it. I don’t want to be a pedophile and I hate that I have convinced myself I am.

Username: Ocd surferOcd surfer

Date posted: 1y ago

This pretty much sums up OCD. I’m sorry you have to go through this. But OCD keeps improvising. Like you said sometimes even without you thinking/ having any sexual thoughts you automatically get the response. This can be true for other themes of OCD too. Like for instance Harm OCD. You are just driving but you get a feeling of having run over someone without even having a thought about it. Also your realisation is part of your recovery. So it is a good point for you to start from. We will get through this. Cheers! Have a good week ahead

Username: schocalischocali

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

We with POCD have “checking” compulsions and this conditions our bodies to automatically feel arousal at the sight of a trigger(ch*ld). Eventually you become so conditioned you don’t even have think about it anymore, the bodily reaction just happens in its own. This is a telltale compulsion and therefore always mean it is OCD. A p*dophile does not care about their intentions to make a post on here. You do. OCD will fill you with doubt about it this. Hold strong!

Username: Ocd surferOcd surfer

Date posted: 1y ago

@Yourmindislyingtoyou True. But I have felt the same with other themes of OCD as well. So it’s not just pocd

Username: lbb.lbb.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Ocd surfer I also struggle with multiple themes, god speed brotha

Username: lbb.lbb.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

My compulsion to check has become automatic, starting ERP next week, I hope we all find some strength and also peace, ocd is a huge pain to say the least

Username: I can’t thin...

Date posted: 6y ago

POCD is the worst. It’s given me Four false crushes,and if I find a kid adorable, it says I’m attracted to them. I feel so weird. Not only because POCD is gross, but because I had a freak out that I was attracted to the yellow guy from don’t hug me I’m scared, because so thought he was cute ( not in that way), so I went to my friends and asked them if they thought he was cute and they were like “what”. This is really dumb

Username: xoxox12356

Date posted: 2y ago

it’s so wierd cos when i see a good looking child my pocd tells me i’m attracted to them bur it’s like a feeling and i feel really anxious and i try to convince myself i don’t find them attractive, but like i feel sick at the thought of like ever wanting to d anything sexual/ or be with them or anything, i just think there nice looking ir whatever, it’s nit even like thoughts anymore it’s more like false attraction/ intrusive feelings. please tell me someone else relates as i’ve been reading articles about p3dos and stuff as i thoight it would help me and it’s just triggerd me more and i cant even enjoy anything anymore as it’s all i can think about, i don’t ever want to be a p and it’s honestly the worst thing ever when will it all stop??

Username: katr :,)

Date posted: 40w ago

Ugh I hate pocd I can’t tell anymore :(

Every time I look at a child now I have these feelings and groinials and thoughts that I just can’t tell if they’re real or not bc it feels like it’s real it feels like I’m denying I’m attracted to them or something when I just notice that they are cute and have like attractive faces/feautures? And sometimes it feels like I notice them like an adult :/ but sometimes like if it’s like a vid or something sometimes I think it’s someone older but then I see longer and I’m like oof it’s not 🫠 like ughhh I just hate this idk what to do and I don’t want to be become an abuser I’m scared like I’ll be like my abuser and i don’t feel anxious like before bc I had these thoughts come up since 2020

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