I dont know how to go back

A month ago I was feeling so good, i was im a recovery journey, i had some bad days but then i was able to see it as a good thing. Now for 2 weeks now im on a setback and its worse day by day, now i cant even escape from my mind, i was able to see through all of this, and now this is the complete inverse of that... I cant even go back to see what i did so i do the same again to feel better but my I keep thinking that i just think i kept getting better, i was blinded by the good feelings, actually i was still obsessive, and i cant do the same things again cause it will not help... i feel alot of shame cause how I was felt so good for weeks and see through ocd and now i believe everything my mind says and i react to every thought...thats why i think i wasnt even on a good path, then i wouldnt be here. Im tired of always go back to the starting point...

Username: taurisingtaurising

Date posted: 1y ago

I know exactly what you mean. I had the exact same experience and I was freaking out because i went from not believing all my thoughts to being scared by every little intrusive thought. But anyway, someone said good times are not “measured” by the amount of obsessive thoughts we have but how much we resist our compulsions. And that helped me understand that the obsessions will be there but the compulsions keep them around for longer

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

Yeah my obsessions are bad too cause i have pure-o and i just worry about everything, if i dont understand something i try to find the answer or i panic... i have a really bad inner self talk too. I guess my compulsions are trying to get the answers to these thoughts but in those moments its not possible to say "well i dont know and i will be okay with it" cause im not... i panic more then i feel depressed. When i felt good it wasnt because i got answers, it was like i understood why i shouldnt fear about these things, there was a deep feeling of i know what is true, i know these are false ocd thoughts... but some say this is reassurance... saying i dont know in the mids of panicking doesnt makes the situation better for me...

Username: birddbirdd

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, I just wanna tell you that I am going trough the same! I have been in such a good phase and now I am in one of the most hard downs I ever had… I don’t know how and what exactly I am going to do, but what I know is that is possible to get better because it happened before so I know I can do it! I am trying to find some new strategy different from the ones I had before… I am about to start ERP therapy today and I am confident it will work! Don’t think that your progress is gone, is still there and you are still strong! The downs will happen sometimes and they are challenging but I believe they get weak with the time! Keep going and fighting, you are winning and more good days will come! ❤️

Username: Steven55!Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Keep in mind that recovery is not linear, it's messy. Are you in therapy? If not, please consider seeing an OCD therapist and using the ERP tools. Recovery is really the sum of the whole.

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

I had one but it made my ocd worse... i gone through more problems with her then alone...

Username: Steven55!Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Was she a trained OCD specialist, or a generalist?

Username: PRIV8PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

My therapist who sended me there said she understands ocd... well he's wasnt right

Username: Steven55!Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Yep, sounds to me like you had the wrong therapist. How about contacting NOCD for a consultation. I think it's free and could change your life. It did mine.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Struggling with Relapse?

I’ve been doing really well the past few months. I’ve been consistent with ERP therapy and other exercises to help manage my OCD. However, something triggered my OCD to come back in full force last week and while I know that the journey to recovery isn’t linear, and I know that this is something I will always have to work on, it’s been very disheartening and it feels like all the progress I’ve made has been for nothing. It’s exhausting and I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts that I will never get better again. Anyone else relate?

Username: Moha🍃

Date posted: 44w ago

OCD rant

Why isn’t the road to recovery a smooth one, it feels like 2 steps forward and 1 one backward, it’s confusing me and gives me this feeling of hopelessness when ever I backslide to that dark pit again

Username: Makingachange24

Date posted: 38w ago

Setback:(

How do you deal with setbacks?? I was doing great for a couple of weeks, feeling so empowered. Then, I was watching tv and saw something that triggered all of my thoughts to come back and now I feel like I’m back to where I started. I suffer with real event OCD and it’s with mistakes I know I’ve for sure made. But for a while I was able to just sit with them and realize I’m a human being who has made mistakes and that’s ok. But today I’m back to feeling the need to confess all my past mistakes to my future partner and feeling like I’m a bad, creepy person:(

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