Just don't have it in me to go anywhere, it's been a week. I've gone out once to grocery shop because I had to. I can feel myself getting worse I think. I have been doing a lot of avoiding. I have been avoiding doing things all summer. I hit a wall last week, I had a really bad day and nothing triggered it, it was just a down day. I did a lot of reflecting and realized how okay I'm not. I'm not at my rock bottom, I've been there before. I'm functional for the most part but I'm not okay. Scheduled an appointment with a psychologist last week. It's on the 31st. I'm nervous but hopeful.

Cassi4

Date posted: 6y

I believe it has. I think because I'm still relatively functional I didn't really allow myself to believe it but I avoid, a lot. I feel even more guilty because it's not just my world they is getting smaller it's my children's as well and that's worse than anything. That realization is what brought me back to therapy. I just hope I can do this. I'm honestly quite scared of ERP again. I fudged it last time and this time I want to do it right and doing it right is terrifying.

djsognal

Date posted: 6y

That appointment should do you a lot of good. In the meantime I would suggest that you just set small goals for yourself. Maybe even reward yourself when you accomplish them.

pureolife

Date posted: 6y

Im glad you made an appointment. It sounds like your avoidant behavior is taking over, and I know how much pain avoidance can cause. Small goals to stop avoiding situations and triggers is a great place to start. Hopefully your psychologist can help you plan out how to take back some of your life. OCD can make our worlds so small sometimes. But we can grow them again with some effort and bravery. Stay strong!

pureolife

Date posted: 6y

Doing is right takes a lot of bravery. But I guarantee you are braver and more capable of facing your fears than you think. Take it one step at a time. You can do this.

Cassi4

Date posted: 6y

Just took the YBOCS again, scored a 30. ?

pureolife

Date posted: 6y

Doing it** right

Cassi4

Date posted: 6y

Thank you ?

HOY

Date posted: 25w

therapist appointment

I got a therapist appointment in about a week and I'm scared I will get misunderstood, or I feel like Im not telling enough details, I'm scared that I have something else. This week alone was so draining

POCD

VanillaMocha519

Date posted: 23w

I’m at a low point right now

I didn’t realize how bad/severe my agoraphobia was, I kept putting off as not being “that bad” or thinking “other people have it worse” without realizing I’m low key one of those people 💀 But honestly it makes me wanna cry realizing just how crippled I’ve been, how badly this has actually been all these years, and it’s only getting worse, I have a serious problem and I’m really hoping this place will help me

moon0270

Date posted: 18w

Feeling scared and hesitant

my appointment with the psychiatrist is months away and still need to confirm everything but after talking with my therapist last night I just feel even more scared. Like scared I'm not going to provide enough info and then she'll tell me that nothing is wrong then all of this is for nothing. Of course, id love for there to be nothing wrong with me and to feel none of these things that have been bothering for so long. But the fear of being told that there isn't when its causing so much worry... it's making me really anxious. But it also makes me feel guilty because I feel like I'm just looking for attention or making something out of nothing. Even though I know very well it isn't nothing. I know that people sometimes take years or even decades to get help or get a diagnosis that actually fits what they've experiencing and im scared of that too.

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