Just don't have it in me to go anywhere, it's been a week. I've gone out once to grocery shop because I had to. I can feel myself getting worse I think. I have been doing a lot of avoiding. I have been avoiding doing things all summer. I hit a wall last week, I had a really bad day and nothing triggered it, it was just a down day. I did a lot of reflecting and realized how okay I'm not. I'm not at my rock bottom, I've been there before. I'm functional for the most part but I'm not okay. Scheduled an appointment with a psychologist last week. It's on the 31st. I'm nervous but hopeful.

Cassi4

Date posted: 5y ago

I believe it has. I think because I'm still relatively functional I didn't really allow myself to believe it but I avoid, a lot. I feel even more guilty because it's not just my world they is getting smaller it's my children's as well and that's worse than anything. That realization is what brought me back to therapy. I just hope I can do this. I'm honestly quite scared of ERP again. I fudged it last time and this time I want to do it right and doing it right is terrifying.

djsognal

Date posted: 5y ago

That appointment should do you a lot of good. In the meantime I would suggest that you just set small goals for yourself. Maybe even reward yourself when you accomplish them.

pureolife

Date posted: 5y ago

Im glad you made an appointment. It sounds like your avoidant behavior is taking over, and I know how much pain avoidance can cause. Small goals to stop avoiding situations and triggers is a great place to start. Hopefully your psychologist can help you plan out how to take back some of your life. OCD can make our worlds so small sometimes. But we can grow them again with some effort and bravery. Stay strong!

pureolife

Date posted: 5y ago

Doing is right takes a lot of bravery. But I guarantee you are braver and more capable of facing your fears than you think. Take it one step at a time. You can do this.

Cassi4

Date posted: 5y ago

Just took the YBOCS again, scored a 30. ?

pureolife

Date posted: 5y ago

Doing it** right

Cassi4

Date posted: 5y ago

Thank you ?

Freddy327

Date posted: 19w ago

Waiting for therapy

Hi everyone. I'm feeling kinda scared because I have to wait a whole month to start ERP therapy, but I feel like I need to start doing exposures now because the longer I wait, the more anxiety I get. It just feels like the OCD monster is getting worse. One thing that helps me is asking one person about an obsession I have...asking a person that I trust, and then doing an exposure after I get the "ok" to do it. I feel like I do need 1 reassurance and then I can go ahead and do it. I know i'm not supposed to ask for reassurance at all, but i dont think you're supposed to do ERP on your own right? Does anyone have any suggestions for what to do while waiting for therapy? PS-the reason there is a wait is bc she's on vacation. After she's back we will meet regularly.

moon027097

Date posted: 10w ago

Starting to hate my room

Idk if im the only one but I've literally just been holed up in my bedroom for the past 3 months and have barely gone out especially in the last 2. I'm too scared to leave and interact with people normally because I feel like a criminal and like someone who doesn't deserve to be around others. But in the same breath, I'm starting to hate my bedroom. It just feels like all my negative emotions are being bottled up and stored in here. I keep telling myself I should go out and take a walk and maybe it will feel better to just be out in the fresh air. But also don't want to because I'm quite lethargic on top of not eating that much either. Just feeling... stuck.

HOY

Date posted: 7w ago

therapist appointment

I got a therapist appointment in about a week and I'm scared I will get misunderstood, or I feel like Im not telling enough details, I'm scared that I have something else. This week alone was so draining

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