Hey this is my first post on here. I have struggled with ocd since i was 5. I didnt know because I repressed these memories I guess but my mom told me I had to see a therapist when i was in kindergarten. Anyways, I finally opened up to my best friends the other day about my crippling OCD. And none of them seemed to really care...at all. I wish people would realize OCD is more than just being “neat” and “clean”. It makes school and everyday things more difficult. People dont take OCD seriously enough. I wish my friends cared so I could talk to them about it more, since therapy is so expensive, but I just wanted to share my experiences with a group of people who would understand.

I'm new here... Honestly, I didn't know much about my OCD even though I've been living with it most of my life. I didn't know how complex it could be... I thought what I was experiencing was unique to me and no one else. Most people describe OCD different to mine but when I saw this ad.... I was like.... This is me. I struggle to accept this disorder and I just wish I could be normal... I'm afraid to touch everything and wash my hand constantly. I never tell anyone what goes on it my head because it's embarrassing and they won't understand. I don't know if this app will work but I at least have some relief knowing that I'm not the only one.

I’m fairly new to treating my OCD and have felt crazy for most of my life. It didn’t help that no one in my life truly understood OCD and always said I was being dramatic. I very recently (within the past few months) finally got diagnosed with OCD and my whole life started to make sense. However, I recently opened up to someone I really believed I trusted about the intrusive thoughts I have and now feel worse than I ever have before. They essentially called me a psychopath and said they are worried for the people around me. Even though I would and could never hurt anyone. I’ve never felt more alone and broken in my life. I already try very hard to hide my OCD and everything associated with it because no one in my life understands so it’s been easier to deal with it myself than listen to everyone say whatever they have to say about my situation. After what happened today I’m even more inclined to just keep it to myself. I don’t know what I’m expecting from writing this but I figure this is the best place to write what I’m feeling. Going through OCD is hard enough on it’s own. But when people are telling you they think you’re a danger to society and are crazy because of your intrusive thoughts it really hurts. I’m just tired.

sometimes when I read all these posts I just start crying 😭😭 I hate that we are all suffering like this… ocd is not for the weak and its so frustrating 😭 Im really tired honestly… my ocd has its good and bad days but im just exhausted by all of it. I cant enjoy simple things because my ocd has to overcomplicate every little thing and create these “signs” as to what I am and what I am not. Ive had ocd for over a year now im a just upset 😭😭😭 I dont want to live like this forever… I have a lot of people who say, “you can talk to me if you want” and its really sweet 💓 but I dont think anyone can understand what I am feeling because even I cant… I dont know what im doing- how im feeling- who I am- or even what my values are 😭 ocd just makes me question everything. I am a 14 year old girl 😭😭😭 how am I supposed to know what to do? Ive talked mom about my ocd a few times and she tries to help but she doesn’t even understand 1/5th of what I go through daily. I appreciate her caring even if its a little but I just want some help 😭😭 I am a bit scared of therapy though. But im willing to try but im not sure if my mom will let me… Ocd just makes me feel so unlovable. I hate it.