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- 1y ago
Brain awake
I’m having a rough go of getting to sleep. My thoughts have been very active tonight.
I’m having a rough go of getting to sleep. My thoughts have been very active tonight.
It’s okay to have active thoughts! You can grab a pen and notebook and start writing out all the thoughts if you’d like to do something physical or you could imagine yourself sitting down in a movie theater watching the thoughts go by on a screen. Notice yourself noticing the thoughts. There’s nothing you need to change.
the most important thing is to try not to question why you feel this way, or why the thoughts seem really bad. Whether you believe it or not, when you accept how you feel, your mind will let go of the thought and move on. Takes a while to master this, be patient with yourself, you will mess up, you will spiral again, what’s important is that you accept it all. "my recovery is taking long and that’s okay, i will be healed with time".
walk around your room or house for a little bit and do something off your phone for a second then try later If that doesn’t work maybe turn on a podcast or something tame to listen to? Those are my go tos. Good luck!
tell yourself "my anxiety is worse than it normally is" and tell yourself it’s natural and okay. tell yourself "these things bring me stress and anxiety” and really feel how it makes you feel. Whenever your mind goes down the spiral of a thought, remind yourself it only did that because my anxiety is worse than it normally is. Remind yourself that just because the thought is pressing doesn’t mean that you have to react to it, remember that your mind feels threatened and is trying to protect you from the threat that fortunately is not really there!
@Anonymous Very helpful!
Tonight is one of the hardest nights I’ve ever had with harm ocd. It’s really one of those nights I’m doubting it’s ocd. I’m having panic attack after panic attack and it’s been the past couple of days where it’s been its highest. I’m doing everything I can to cope, like a hot shower (in the middle of a panic attack, hardest thing ever) skin care, turning my diffuser on and skincare. I took a klonopin but it hasn’t kicked in yet. My brain is beating me up with thoughts like “who thinks like this, you’re a serial killer! A murderer! You should be locked up!” Watching my family around me have peace and be normal is so hard because I’m here struggling to just lay down and relax. Part of me feels like I’m gonna lose my mind and end up in the hospital tonight. I just need positive reinforcement and people who can relate. Are you guys there?
i woke up with my heart racing this morning. i feel like the Lord wouldn’t treat me that way. i feel guilty and i feel like i just keep messing up at every step in my walk w the Lord. i literally just woke up feeling bad. i hadn’t even done anything. i had just opened my eyes!! i’m glad i got called into work so i can do something to take my mind off of the thoughts.
So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?
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