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Scripts
Hello!! If you use scripts, do you record yourself with an app, write them down and read aloud, or?
Hello!! If you use scripts, do you record yourself with an app, write them down and read aloud, or?
You can do all of the above 😊
For me in ERP therapy for real event OCD I've been writing them out in the form of letters to others involved, lists of times I failed, or believed I did, worst case scenarios, to name 3. Whatever works to over expose us to our triggers is key. This way we can learn the tools that help us manage and not react with compulsions. I don't believe there's a right or wrong way, it's a matter of finding an effective way, because we're all unique. :-)
So my main compulsion is ruminating, replaying. Two months ago I was awake every night between 12-4 am caught in the cycle of thoughts. After writing things out, as I mentioned above, I'm able to read over the writings, which agitats me and forces me to want to respond with my compulsions, then use my response tools to resist the compulsions. Practicing more retrains the brain to naturally manage the thoughts rather than reacting to them. Now when I wake with the thoughts, I've been able to fall back asleep rather quickly.
I record myself and write them down. Sometimes I listen, sometimes I read aloud.
@Rcope09 What app do you use? Yo record yourself. To be honest it sounds awful I hate hearing my voice!
@Anonymously0CD I record mine through the NOCD app since I am with a NOCD therapist. But you could record yourself on your phone and listen to it repeatedly. I know what you mean, but I think it’s important to hear your own voice reading your worst fears aloud.
Lists lists lists, bane of my life. Since I would say last 4 years any worry that pops in my mind I put down on the notes app on my phone then come back to it sometime. Is this OCD?
I actually didn't realise this til now because I just assumed it was a coping mechanism from when I was really young. But when I tend to get stressed out or overwhelmed, I'll often start talking out loud to myself (which mostly means just whispering to myself because if i spoke really loudly, my mom would hear me lol). But nowadays with my fear of being surveilled, I keep having to catch myself because it's such a habit at this point for me to whisper out loud. Especially with me trying to reason through my false memories or really bad intrusive thoughts. Another compulsion. And then I keep thinking omg did I have my phone with me when I said that. Is anyone watching me rn? What if this person (that probably doesn't even exist) thinks my thoughts are true? What would everyone else think? And then I spiral afterwards. It sucks because I feel like I'm policing myself even when I know these are all just things I'm saying out loud and they don't mean anything— they're just thoughts after all. But I have this worry that if someone overheard me or all of this was suddenly revealed, that it might change how people see me or people might hate me or think i'm a bad person. And then I worry about me being worried about that because then I ask myself would a good person be worried about this? Anyways, another long post with me waffling and rambling. Thank you for taking the time to read this ❤️🩹
Often I listen to podcasts or audiobooks. Sometimes fiction, sometimes about ocd or anxiety. I did this before i got so consumed with ocd again. But no i am doubting myself if i do this to distract myself. I do it while doing chores or when I put on my make-up for example. And I have to admit it helps me to get distracted from my thoughts. How do you know when you do it to distract your thoughts (as a compulsion) or just because you like it? When do you know it is helpfull or not?
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