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Isn’t it crazy how people without ocd have the same thoughts, they just don’t get anxious or do compulsions? It’s hard. I recently noticed that was feeling the same way. I didn’t think I was deserving of anything, but I realized that victimizing myself wasn’t really helping my case either it just kinda sunk me in further. Re-training your brain isn’t easy. I suggest to really try to get out of the victim mindset, this journey is yours and learning to have a good relationship with yourself is important. You deserve love no matter how you feel.

i feel the same, i hope things begin to get better for you . you do deserve it

Same here :( i also truly hope my guilt leaves me alone if i ever recover, bc it seems like it never will.

This is exactly what we all face in this battle. We're secretly perfectionists, so any uncomfortable thought is completely unacceptable and we deserve the cruelest punishment for the smallest thought. I've actually told people close to me that I'm the worst person to ever walk in earth because of my thoughts. Again...it's only a thought. We fear that the thought makes us what we are, that's not true, it's our values, our direction that's makes us who we are. And, we're imperfect and will make plenty of mistakes in our lives, so we need to go easy on ourselves, manage thoughts, self care. :-)

Also if you listen to music, I really like little simz. When I’m feeling really tired or blue I listen to broken by little simz, it’s a amazing song. :( <3