So, I really like helping others, and in the future I would like to become a psychologist ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ I have a lot of knowledge about OCD And I struggle with this myself, mainly with ROCD, but also with POCD, Suicidal OCD and Somatic OCD I am empathetic, if anyone needs help with POCD, Harm OCD, ROCD (if it is not really developed) Come with this to me, i wont let anyone alone <3
Ps: If im not response, im sleeping or just worried to much, But faster or later i will replay ^°
Hi. I live alone during weekdays. I have no one here. My doctors and I don't get along. They have no or extensive lack of knowledge about things I need (ocd,...), so they show me that I have problems with myself and that I should stop bothering them. They put me down. I had two "friends", both ditched me for to me unknown reasons. I did more than anyone else for them, and then I visited another neighbor, who fell and broke her hip while I was there (94years old), and now one of them avoids me as if I were a jinx. The other one avoids me because I sent a sms to her mother wishing her a safe trip when she went on 2 week holidays. That is all I did. And it was somehow wrong. I am fighting not to let this upset me, but it does. I feel like trash. People treat me like trash. Always have. My doctors dislike me, people use me and then ditch me,... I have lost my family, relatives and friends a very long time ago because of ocd. I feel like my life just doesn't have a purpose. I've been thinking about just giving up on everything and let things happen to me as they might Since my life is not worth living anyway, let alone fighting for it. After a while I started thinking it might be best just to end it all and disappear. My husband's life would be easier without me. No one else would even notice. A few months ago I was in hospital 9 days. High blood pressure. Except my husband, nobody visited me. My so called 2 ex friends never even asked how I was and they knew I was there. Noone even considered visiting me. And hospital is about 3 min away by car, 10 min by bike and less than half an hour on foot from where we live. I think my birth was a mistake or a big punishment from karma or a God's not so funny joke. I don't know if this is what you expected to get when you so kindly offered help. I am sorry if you didn't and if I upset you. Even if you do not answer, I just needed to tell somebody. Thank you for giving me the opportunity. Big hug.
Welp, 1) Look, you have a husband, he loves you and if you disapaired he will have a heartbreak, so your life have a point :p 2) Your friends were toxic AS FUK they shouldn't leave you becouse of OCD, they werent worth you and they are just a garbage 3) Your life is worth fighting for, you shouldn't give up becouse of some bad events, that isnt your fault Look, you just met some bad friends But You met that one, who loves you, who cares, who dont let you struggle Faster or later you will find ppl worth your care :) I Have hope you will find them ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
@KSELUME Thank you very much. It feels so good to know that there is someone like you out there I can turn to when I am and feel all alone. You made me feel better. Thank you. Bless you.
@NODA Ohhh Cute! I have hope that you will feel better soon, Bless you 2 <3
@KSELUME 💕
@NODA ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
@NODA Anyway, If you wanna any help im waiting ^^
@KSELUME Hi. How are you? I hate myself for being afraid to be who I am and say what I think because of what other people might think of me. I find myself always complimenting other people (you are great, you are amazing, You area great mother, you are so strong, I wish I were you,....) even if I know they don't deserve. They never say anything nice to me. I am so grateful anytime someone makes me feel good for a moment that I just want to give them a small present as a token of my thankfulness. I usually don't because until I see them again they will have already found a way to disappoint me, ignore me, make fun of me. I am so hungry for emotional support, that I feel I need to pay (presents, thank you emails or texts...) for any nice word said to me, even by my therapist. I am hopeless. I for example have promised myself, that the next time I run into my next door neighbour, I will just say hello and go my way. I have never done that. Before she started treating me as if I were some sort of a curse or jinxed, I always smiled, took the time to talk to her,... In the other hand I wish to ask her what I did wrong for her to just ignore me and hide from me like that. I have lost so many people in my life, it hurts to lose more. Me and my ocd. And the scariest part for me is, that when I see her, I might smile and talk to her as if she never hurt me. I do that to myself. I have no backbone. I have never said to someone that they are idiots or sent them to hell in their face, even if I am sure 99% of all other people in the world would at certain occasions. I believe that is why they take me for granted and get rid of me when they have nothing else to take from me. I am so pathetic, that when someone is really mean to me, breaks my heart and I have no contact with them anymore, that I feel sorry and a strange kind of loving regret that I lost them. A person might stab me in my back and I feel sorry for loosing them, miss them. My ocd doesn't let me and my hubby have any visitors in our home. I think I lose people because of that as well. I can go out or visit people at their homes, but after a while it becomes not ok because they never come to me and I just don't trust them enough to tell them about my OCD. My therapist was trying to practice ERP with me, but she has no idea how it should be done. I don't either. I just know it is not the way she thinks it is. She has just finished studying psychology and thinks she knows it all about all disorders and conditions and therapies. I would appreciate your view on my stupid character. Why do I do this to myself? If this is too much to ask from you, I apologize in advance, just tell me. I can't tell you how much I appreciate talking to someone who knows what kind of horror a life with ocd can be. Thank you.
@NODA At first, You have really low self-esteem Secondly Don't apologize for asking for someone to listen to you, help you (in this case, express an opinion) This is a human need and I will be happy to provide it to you ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ You have a very rich and cool character, People are terrible and just because you don't get compliments from others doesn't mean you don't deserve them, See, people usually take care of the tip of their nose and are very, very good at accepting compliments, but they can't give From what you wrote, you have a really nice and nice character, if you don't believe me, think about it, your husband is with you for some reason (And I'm not surprised at all) Anyway, if you wanna talk, or tell me something im ready ^^ (If i not replay, im sleeping or just cant) Have hope you will feel better soon ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ
@KSELUME ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ = ( ꈍvꈍ)*
@KSELUME Thank you again. I do have a kind husband. He is all I have and I am all he has. We've been together for a long time. There have been hard times due to my ocd, but it got much better when I went on meds. He tells me he loves me every day, and I know he does, but since I was not supported and loved by the people who were supposed to love me- my parents, and then a long line of others for whom I just wasn't good enaugh and didn't meet their standards, I have a hard time to open up my heart and truly feel my husband's love although I know he loves me. When I say to him, that I love him, sometimes I doubt myself - like I ask myself if I am really capable of feeling the love that I claim to feel for him, pets. I would give my life for them. So why do I doubt myself? OCD? You just take all the time you need to answer me, I am just grateful to be able to tell you things. It is now 9p.m here. Soon to bed. If you ever need to talk about something with someone, I will be glad to listen. I am a much better support to others than to myself. Thank you for your kind words. I also hope I feel better soon. 🙏😇💐💖
@NODA Wait wait, 9p.m? Where are u from? (Im from Poland and its 9p.m to) ^^)
@KSELUME Hi. I am also from Europe. From a small country close to Austria. I apologize for not being more specific. It's not because of you, it's just that this community here is for me so precious, that I just don't want someone from the same country to find me. I need an outlet. But I can tell you, growing up, my best friend was also Polish. 😊
@KSELUME I wish you a good night. Have nice dreams. I am off to bed now. Till tomorrow. Thank you again. 😇💖
hey there, it sounds like you've got a big heart and a strong drive to help others, which is really awesome. 🌟 i totally get the struggle with OCD, even though my obsessions are more on the pure o side, the battle feels just as real. it's tough, but it's clear you've got a lot of strength and insight, especially wanting to be a psychologist—that's super inspiring! i've been using this free AI OCD therapy tool that's been pretty helpful for me when the OCD thoughts get too intense. you just type in what's messing with your head, and the AI walks you through the steps, kinda like having an OCD therapist on-demand. it might be something that could support you too, especially on those rough days. if you're curious, give it a shot, and i'm here if you've got any questions about it. hang in there, we're all in this together. 💪
1) Thanks about complementing, i apriciate it 2) Where i can find AI-OCD? My OCD is focused on obsession so probably i will use this <3
@KSELUME - of course! anytime. the AI tool is called "unstuck" and you can check it out here: www.AIOCDtool.com. it’s still “beta testing” so it’s not perfect, but still works really well for the most part (at least for my “weirder” obsessions). you just type in what’s bothering you with OCD (like a journal entry) .and then the AI helps you 1) identify what’s going on (like your core fears at play/potential compulsions/cognitive distortions/etc) and 2) walks you through resisting your compulsions with tips/exercises! feel free to try and hoping it can help you a little 😊
@JenniesOCDBrain Its scam... Im pretty sure
@KSELUME - i don't think so, i've had it for 2 months now and my therapist recommended it to me.. but if you want to be safe, no worries :)
Do you know anything about like false feelings or constantly losing train of thought and sometimes feeling like you believe the opposite of reality, as well as doubting everything? I am pretty sure I have religious ocd and there’s always this feeling of guilt or that there is something missing. Thanks a lot I also enjoy helping others and wish you well on your journey 😁😁
Probably not everything, but I know a little... If you want to talk about this topic, I'm open :p
Sure I’d like to talk about comparing ocd experiences
Welp, im waiting
@KSELUME What’s your experiences with ocd like what you struggled with and how you coped
@Anonymous Welp, When i was young i used to struggle with washing / clearing OCD (I was washing mys 7 times daily, and wash my hands that much, that my skin has been started to fall off ;-;) I coped with it becouse i felt in Love, My Love (crush) Had briliant habbitats, and i started to stop washing, no matter what Now i have Pure "o" With POCD and ROCD, I dont cope with it at all ;-;
@KSELUME My ocd is usually false memory but I also have washing and contamination ocd. To the point to where i was washing my hands autonomously, like without giving it thought. My false memory is the worst. It tries to trick me into thinking I’ve done things that I’ve never done. Which leads to tons of guilt and shame.
Good evening, Kselume. I hope you are having a nice day. I am feeling a bit better today. Much thanks goes to you for lifting me morally. Thank you. I wish you a lovely evening.
Thanks and Vice Versa <3
If anyone needs help in exposures or something they are struggling with I’m open to help! I’ve been dealing with OCD, anxiety, and depression for a long time now. I’ve got a pretty firm understanding on the mechanism of OCD and ERP. I am struggling with depression strongly at the moment but I’ve seen large and tangible progress with ERP ?
Hello everyone! I am not the one having OCD, but my boyfriend does, and it is combined with depression. He hides it pretty well (he doesn't want to make me or any other person sad) and acts like everything is normal most of the time (makes everyone laugh etc. - like many other depressed people) even though I know he suffers a lot. We know each other on a very deep level and I am the only person who he has told about having OCD and depression, and I just want to help him as much as I can. The thing is that he has a lot of negative thoughts most of the time and if he doesn't do something, for example, claps his hands 8 times, he believes 100% something bad is going to happen to me, like I'm gonna get hurt or something. At the moment it is not possible for him to talk to specialized OCD therapist as there is not one in the area where we live in, but I am confident that I can help him or, even better, guide him, so he helps himself, so that he, at least, suffers less from this. What advice would you give me? I know that I shouldn't be too pushy or telling him what I think he should do. I just want him to know that I'm there for him and that, even though I cannot understand what he's going through, I can at least educate myself about OCD (I've seen some self-help books you posted here) and talk to him about what I've read, because I think it is better to talk about it rather than him hiding it and suffering in silence.. This is how I thought I could help him: When I see or when he tells me that compulsions are happening or going to happen, I'm gonna let him know that he is not going through this alone and that he can trust me. Then I will ask him to tell me what kind of thoughts are going through his mind at the moment, and if he, for example, tells me that he thinks something bad is gonna happen to me I'm gonna tell him to try not to do any compulsive behaviour and try to, no matter how hard it is at the moment, accept that thought and repeat after me: You are safe. I am safe. We are always going to be safe. Only good things happen to us and always will. I believe that if this is done constantly that it will make his OCD more managenable (and depression as well). I would really appreciate any comment, expert or from a person having a similar experience that my boyfriend has. I really want to help him. Thank you! ❤
Hello guys most of you guys might know me by now , I have probably been dealing with so-ocd longer then most so I am here to help anytime . Any questions on how to deal with so-ocd I am here for you want everyone to make progress
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