So I posted before about feeling great and now I don’t again. Ironic. I’ve had this thought a million times but I can’t stop thinking why would I think and worry about this everyday for nearly 5 years if it wasn’t true? Sometimes I am shocked at the amount of time wasted because it doesn’t feel like 5 years but they’ve went by almost without me noticing. Probably not in for a good night

I’ve never had a crush on a girl either and it just doesn’t make sense. Only guys not to many but it’s always just guys so it really sucks to constantly question this.

Nope nothing at all just dealing with them on my own.

Yes I have

How’d you get over it so quickly?

Omg 5 years?? I think hocd is actually gonna be one of hardest things ever.

@advice? Yeah and it really worries me incase it’s not actually OCD and I’m just clinging to the idea because I’m scared or something. I have no idea. I remember saying ‘if this carries on for 6 months I’ll tell my mum because I know something isn’t right’ and then I fell into a bout of depression and started worrying ‘what if it’s not OCD’ and just got too scared to tell. I don’t think I’ll ever tell anyone because I literally feel paralysed with anxiety and fear over the whole thing.

Wow, that’s really sad to hear I’ve only been dealing with it for like 5 months now. It’s really sickening. Have you ever felt like you’re actually just lesbian? But then you say no because of evidence.

Yes I have felt that but then I just don’t understand because I’ve never had a crush on a girl in my life, not even a celebrity or anything. It sounds so stupid but I have liked so many guys on like TV shows and films over the years so I’m so confused why I’m even questioning. But it’s in my head every single hour of every day, so I always think it must be relevant or significant. I feel nothing looking at pretty women but because I’m constantly doing it to check I’m like ‘what straight girl would constantly check every woman to see if they’re attracted’. I’ve been suicidal multiple times because of this and I really hate it.

Are you doing anything, any medication or therapy?

Please try and learn as much as you can and maybe try therapy. I would hate for you to do what I did and end up years down the line so quickly. Have you watched Chrissie Hodges videos online?