I feel like I’m starting to deny my sexuality. Before this I never really thought about girls that way. Now I am and it terrifies me. It feels like I just don’t wanna accept that I’m lesbian. I’m so damn lost. It feels like I know I’m lesbian. But I just can’t be. Anyone feel this way? Probably reassurance but if any of you think I am or it seems like I am please tell me.

I am going through the same thing, this is OCD as its finest. OCD is just about doubting, you started doubting your sexuality, then you heard about HOCD (I‘m sure you have it, because if not, you wouldn’t be here) and felt relief. Now OCD is like „She is feeling relief? Hell no, that’s not what I wanted! Now let’s start and making her doubt about HOCD and make her believe she is in denial!“ Every kind of OCD has this kind of denial-obsession. Don’t worry

No one can tell you if you are or not. I can relate Sometims i feel like i am denying, than i try to imagine myself with girl, and i torture my self. My mind said but what if you like this, but you lying, or what if you feel good, than i check once again, than i feel more stressed. It doesn help, that i have groinals or arousal, when i do compulsion. I know that is bad, but i dont know what to do I check my reaction to every girls, even with my friend, i cant relax and be happy when i am with them You are not alone

@MentalHelp what you described is exactly what happened to me. I remember the day I discovered hocd. I've never felt more relieved in my entire life, but it was very short lived.

You will be ok. Honestly, detoxes from social media helps. Sometimes when you scroll through and see pictures of people it can trigger you but also just thinking about it is triggering. If the thought of you being homosexual gives you anxiety, it most likely means you aren’t homosexual. If you were homosexual, you would want to be with someone of the same sex. And think of it this way, if you don’t want to be with a girl, don’t be with a girl. No one is forcing you to be with anyone. If you were truly homosexual, you would still have to make the choice of being in a relationship with a female. You don’t have to if you don’t want it. And if you don’t want it, you aren’t homosexual.

Heya, it sounds like you’re looking for reassurance which is not going to be helpful in the long term. OCD always finds a loophole! I’m really sorry you’re feeling so confused though, I understand the feeling. Maybe you could try the SOS feature on this app to help stave off compulsions right now ☺️

But have you gone through this same feeling? I just need to know that.

Maybe you feel you like it because you are afraid , or becuse of groinals If you liked you will not be stressed

I relate 100% to this.

Yessss

Thank you, it just feels like I’m denying it. Idk if I am or not. Idk what the truth is anymore. I keep picturing things and it feels like I like it. But idk anymore. I have a bf and I enjoy being with him. But the worry about being attracted to girls continues to be there.

Yes^ , I was like oh okay that’s what’s happening. But I knew it was just like all the other thoughts I had before this. But this just all feels so damn real. I’m analyzing every little thing and when I feel like it real I get the hot flashes and a bit light headed. It’s so painful.

Thank you Kristen! I appreciate you’re reply. I have so many panic moments it’s painful.

I understand. It would be nice if there was an off button for our brains, right?