borubi7
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- 1y
Thoughts/images on purpose
I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?
VhperryVhperry
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- 1y
It’s possible that ocd is convincing you that the thoughts are on purpose. One of the key components of ocd is that it loves to take intrusive thoughts that maybe most people have regularly and forces us to feel like we have to assign meaning to it. Sometimes that looks like having a “horrible thought” and then thinking that means we want it to happen or we are bad people. With ERP therapy you can start to work on letting thoughts happen without letting them feel sticky and meaningful.
borubi7borubi7
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- 1y
But those thoughts not just POP up,they don’t happen all of sudden, I literally think them on purpose. But I don’t know why I do that. Because I hate it. These are disgusting thoughts.
24Lillie24Lillie
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- 1y
@birdsunflower1 Do you think maybe your checking if they’re still there? I do that sometimes when I realise I haven’t had any intrusive thoughts for a while and then it causes them to pop up and I feel quite guilty and at fault
borubi7borubi7
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- 1y
@24Lillie - I actually don’t know. Maybe unconsciously. But I have no idea. I just do it 😭
sizzwu sizzwu
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I go through the same thing. I have intrusive thoughts and then I have times where I know I could have avoided it but did it. I compare it to like a cat flicking around a dead mouse. Or like trying to not scratch a big bite. It’s awful. I hate it.
borubi7borubi7
- Date posted
- 1y
But I feel like these are not intrusive thoughts because I do them on purpose. I think them on purpose. Even though I don’t want to.
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