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Thoughts/images on purpose
I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?
I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?
It’s possible that ocd is convincing you that the thoughts are on purpose. One of the key components of ocd is that it loves to take intrusive thoughts that maybe most people have regularly and forces us to feel like we have to assign meaning to it. Sometimes that looks like having a “horrible thought” and then thinking that means we want it to happen or we are bad people. With ERP therapy you can start to work on letting thoughts happen without letting them feel sticky and meaningful.
But those thoughts not just POP up,they don’t happen all of sudden, I literally think them on purpose. But I don’t know why I do that. Because I hate it. These are disgusting thoughts.
@birdsunflower1 Do you think maybe your checking if they’re still there? I do that sometimes when I realise I haven’t had any intrusive thoughts for a while and then it causes them to pop up and I feel quite guilty and at fault
@24Lillie - I actually don’t know. Maybe unconsciously. But I have no idea. I just do it 😭
I go through the same thing. I have intrusive thoughts and then I have times where I know I could have avoided it but did it. I compare it to like a cat flicking around a dead mouse. Or like trying to not scratch a big bite. It’s awful. I hate it.
But I feel like these are not intrusive thoughts because I do them on purpose. I think them on purpose. Even though I don’t want to.
hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. having intrusive thoughts can feel so distressing and confusing, especially when you can't pinpoint why they're happening. please remember, you're not alone in this. 💛 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' when i was in a similar position, my therapist from NOCD introduced me to it, and it's been a game changer. i feel like it might help you because it uses AI to guide you step-by-step through tough moments, just like an OCD therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really believe unstuck can make a difference for you, it genuinely changed my life. lmk if you need more info or just want to chat more. <3
I have severe various forms of ocd. Now it’s harm related. I love my family and daughter but today all of the sudden when I’m driving I had a horrible thought of: omg i will kill my own child one day because I’m crazy. And this thought is so horrifying because I have no intentions of harming anyone but these thoughts come up and I’m freaking out…anyone else have extreme intrusive thoughts?
I was having a really good day at work and then all of a sudden, I realize that my harm OCD wasn’t there and then that reminded my brain to think about all these horrible things. I’ve been having really bad intrusive thoughts about wanting to hurt people or the fear of doing these things and I caught myself ruminating on things like oh well did this movie make me feel uncomfortable so I can reassure myself that I don’t wanna do these things and it’s just that fear like that I’m gonna wanna do it and it’s not even people that I’m close to. It’s literally anyone it could be like a random stranger thing about these things cause I know that’s a compulsion. So I thought I would put a message out to see if anyone could relate or has any advice.
What do you do when you have a thought and you’re not sure if it’s intrusive or not? I just had one that was so strange and bad, and I can’t believe I just had it, but I’m almost afraid it’s not intrusive and there really is something wrong with me. I hate this.
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