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- birdsunflower1
- Date posted
- 42w ago
Thoughts/images on purpose
I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?
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- VhperryVhperry
- Date posted
- 42w ago
It’s possible that ocd is convincing you that the thoughts are on purpose. One of the key components of ocd is that it loves to take intrusive thoughts that maybe most people have regularly and forces us to feel like we have to assign meaning to it. Sometimes that looks like having a “horrible thought” and then thinking that means we want it to happen or we are bad people. With ERP therapy you can start to work on letting thoughts happen without letting them feel sticky and meaningful.
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- birdsunflower1birdsunflower1
- Date posted
- 42w ago
But those thoughts not just POP up,they don’t happen all of sudden, I literally think them on purpose. But I don’t know why I do that. Because I hate it. These are disgusting thoughts.
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- 24Lillie24Lillie
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@birdsunflower1 Do you think maybe your checking if they’re still there? I do that sometimes when I realise I haven’t had any intrusive thoughts for a while and then it causes them to pop up and I feel quite guilty and at fault
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- birdsunflower1birdsunflower1
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@24Lillie - I actually don’t know. Maybe unconsciously. But I have no idea. I just do it 😭
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- sizzwu sizzwu
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I go through the same thing. I have intrusive thoughts and then I have times where I know I could have avoided it but did it. I compare it to like a cat flicking around a dead mouse. Or like trying to not scratch a big bite. It’s awful. I hate it.
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- birdsunflower1birdsunflower1
- Date posted
- 42w ago
But I feel like these are not intrusive thoughts because I do them on purpose. I think them on purpose. Even though I don’t want to.
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- MichelleBrando55MichelleBran...
- Date posted
- 42w ago
hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. having intrusive thoughts can feel so distressing and confusing, especially when you can't pinpoint why they're happening. please remember, you're not alone in this. 💛 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' when i was in a similar position, my therapist from NOCD introduced me to it, and it's been a game changer. i feel like it might help you because it uses AI to guide you step-by-step through tough moments, just like an OCD therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really believe unstuck can make a difference for you, it genuinely changed my life. lmk if you need more info or just want to chat more. <3
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Why is my ocd making me think about it constantly.
Does anyone else's OCD make them think about horrible things all the time. I feel like I'm constantly having horrible intrusive thoughts 24/7 and I can't even sleep without seeing horrible images when I close my eyes. I feel like a monster because their are times where it feels like I like the thoughts even though I'm absolutely appaled by them 24/7 and they literally make me feel nauseous because of the absolute disgust I feel by them. Its just so painful because I'm constantly being attacked in my own mind all the time. Does anyone have good coping mechanisms to deal with this? I just want to be able to have peace in my mind once in awhile
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- birdsunflower1
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Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
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