- Username
- borubi7
- Date posted
- 47w ago
Thoughts/images on purpose
I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?
- Username
- VhperryVhperry
- Date posted
- 47w ago
It’s possible that ocd is convincing you that the thoughts are on purpose. One of the key components of ocd is that it loves to take intrusive thoughts that maybe most people have regularly and forces us to feel like we have to assign meaning to it. Sometimes that looks like having a “horrible thought” and then thinking that means we want it to happen or we are bad people. With ERP therapy you can start to work on letting thoughts happen without letting them feel sticky and meaningful.
- Username
- borubi7borubi7
- Date posted
- 47w ago
But those thoughts not just POP up,they don’t happen all of sudden, I literally think them on purpose. But I don’t know why I do that. Because I hate it. These are disgusting thoughts.
- Username
- 24Lillie24Lillie
- Date posted
- 47w ago
@birdsunflower1 Do you think maybe your checking if they’re still there? I do that sometimes when I realise I haven’t had any intrusive thoughts for a while and then it causes them to pop up and I feel quite guilty and at fault
- Username
- borubi7borubi7
- Date posted
- 47w ago
@24Lillie - I actually don’t know. Maybe unconsciously. But I have no idea. I just do it 😭
- Username
- sizzwu sizzwu
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 47w ago
I go through the same thing. I have intrusive thoughts and then I have times where I know I could have avoided it but did it. I compare it to like a cat flicking around a dead mouse. Or like trying to not scratch a big bite. It’s awful. I hate it.
- Username
- borubi7borubi7
- Date posted
- 47w ago
But I feel like these are not intrusive thoughts because I do them on purpose. I think them on purpose. Even though I don’t want to.
- Username
- MichelleBrando55MichelleBran...
- Date posted
- 47w ago
hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. having intrusive thoughts can feel so distressing and confusing, especially when you can't pinpoint why they're happening. please remember, you're not alone in this. 💛 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' when i was in a similar position, my therapist from NOCD introduced me to it, and it's been a game changer. i feel like it might help you because it uses AI to guide you step-by-step through tough moments, just like an OCD therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really believe unstuck can make a difference for you, it genuinely changed my life. lmk if you need more info or just want to chat more. <3
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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I hate how my mind is making me doubt of my intentions when i clearly know that I don’t have any desires to act on my thoughts. It makes my intentions feel so uncertain, and sometimes it would even make me feel like if I wanted to act on my thoughts when I actually don’t, because I wouldn’t be doubting if I did. So since I feel my intentions so uncertain I need to come to an answer, and sometimes it is so damn hard to get that answer, which makes me anxious and disturbed. It would also make me think of my past like, how were you okay without having these thoughts? Or makes me think of my future like, will you be okay without these thoughts? So it would make me think that these thoughts are really desires and I won’t be okay unless I act on them. As horrible as it sounds. And I don’t know if someone gets this too but, it would also make me doubt my feelings. When my family tells me cute things like “I love you” and stuff, I would feel so bad, because my thoughts are towards them. So I would say “ily too” but I feel like an hypocrite saying it, or like I don’t mean it at all, so it makes me doubt if I really love them or not. This is all so overwhelming, and I have gone through so many disturbing and crazy thoughts, feelings and situations, that I don’t know if this might be OCD.
- Username
- Cupcakes82!
- Date posted
- 2y ago
please someone give me words of advice
i saw a picture of a pretty girl on instagram just now and the first intrusive thought that came to my mind was me saying i would love to *insert the most horrible sexual abusive thing* to her. i am absolutely disgusted with my brain and i want to throw up. why would i even get that thought. i’m not even sexually active and would never do ANYTHING to hurt anyone. i get the worst sexually intrusive thoughts and it makes me feel awful because that is just not me. but my ocd makes me feel like it is. i don’t want to think like this anymore. why does my ocd make me suffer in this way. i would take any other form of ocd over this. does anyone else get these intrusive thoughts or is it just me
- Username
- borubi7
- Date posted
- 1y ago
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Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
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