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- 5y
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- 5y
Uh, I remember when hocd first hit me all I can think about were scenarios with women. I would nearly cry, it was so painful. I remember sitting in my closet , so angry and crying. Not knowing what I did to feel this pain, it was really the worst. I didn’t want to think about these things, it felt so real I hated it. You’ll be okay, you need to stop comparing your own OCD to others. It’s not always going to be the same, we’re all different. Stay calm, find someone close to talk to. That helped with me. I hope it can help with you, you’re strong and you’ll get through this. We all will get through this.
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- 5y
Thank you both so much. You have no idea how nice it is for me to be able to tell people what’s going on. Hope you’re both doing well.
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- 5y
Listen , whatever you are going through can change and it can change faster than you think. Reading this makes me very sad and I feel horrible for you that you’re going through this , but you don’t have to go through it alone. I may not know you personally but I care a lot about you and I want the best for you !! ❤️ Harming yourself may seem to help in the moment but it becomes a compulsion and can really damage you in the long run. Please speak to someone , you truly deserve it !! I’m always here if you need anything , so if you ever need to talk you can hmu on Instagram @xiiiandreww ! Hope you feel better ASAP :)
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- 5y
Girl, you are so strong for being open about what your are going through! OCD is hell, but you seem to be strong. We believe in you! ❤️
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- 5y
It is okay we need to vent sometimes :) Ive been in the same boat of not feeling like I can relate to people who have ocd anymore. Also that feeling of emptiness and not being able to cry. Please don't harm yourself and you should see an ocd specialist. I wish you the best and hope you get better.
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- 23w
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
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- POCD
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- Date posted
- 21w
I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy
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- Date posted
- 20w
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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