I haven’t posted on here in a few days. Since last Friday I’ve just felt really weird and I’d read other people’s posts and just feel like I don’t relate anymore and it’s not OCD. I’ve needed to cry for 10 days but I just haven’t been able to feel anything. Today I’m feeling horrible though. I’m sick of everything, I’m sick of looking at women to test. I’m sick of clenching my fist when I walk past a woman incase I get the urge to inappropriately touch them (weird sorry). Either that or walking an extra few yards further away just incase. I’m feeling so low that I’ve started to harm myself. I know it’s so so so stupid. I don’t even know why I’m doing it. I just feel so bad. Sorry for this - I know someone might tell me to try therapy. I just needed to talk.

Uh, I remember when hocd first hit me all I can think about were scenarios with women. I would nearly cry, it was so painful. I remember sitting in my closet , so angry and crying. Not knowing what I did to feel this pain, it was really the worst. I didn’t want to think about these things, it felt so real I hated it. You’ll be okay, you need to stop comparing your own OCD to others. It’s not always going to be the same, we’re all different. Stay calm, find someone close to talk to. That helped with me. I hope it can help with you, you’re strong and you’ll get through this. We all will get through this.

Thank you both so much. You have no idea how nice it is for me to be able to tell people what’s going on. Hope you’re both doing well.

Listen , whatever you are going through can change and it can change faster than you think. Reading this makes me very sad and I feel horrible for you that you’re going through this , but you don’t have to go through it alone. I may not know you personally but I care a lot about you and I want the best for you !! ❤️ Harming yourself may seem to help in the moment but it becomes a compulsion and can really damage you in the long run. Please speak to someone , you truly deserve it !! I’m always here if you need anything , so if you ever need to talk you can hmu on Instagram @xiiiandreww ! Hope you feel better ASAP :)

Girl, you are so strong for being open about what your are going through! OCD is hell, but you seem to be strong. We believe in you! ❤️

It is okay we need to vent sometimes :) Ive been in the same boat of not feeling like I can relate to people who have ocd anymore. Also that feeling of emptiness and not being able to cry. Please don't harm yourself and you should see an ocd specialist. I wish you the best and hope you get better.