- Date posted
- 47w ago
Why i want to beat OCD
Because the things i fear the most are the things i want the most. Because i feel like this disease is taking my life from me.
Because the things i fear the most are the things i want the most. Because i feel like this disease is taking my life from me.
You can absolutely do this. And you will. Please try ALI GREYMOND on YouTube and also Nathan Petersons Channel called ‘OCD and Anxiety’ I really think they will give you the extra support WITHOUT the reassurance! We are all routing for you ☺️
@katieR94 Nathan is the best for me
Nathan is great and I like how Ali gets right to the point with a no nonsense approach
@Brian4321 Yes! It depends on how bad my ocd is with who I listen to 😂 ali i use for a very BAD day and Nathan I’ll watch most days just to get a boost
What an AMAZING point. I agree, what I care most about is what I get phobic about… which is exactly what I need to tackle. Very very slowly but surely. Good luck everyone.
I am so angry with ocd. I hate that ocd even exists. I wouldn’t necessarily say I wanted to be a mom when I was younger. I grew up without my mom around. But now my sisters are both moms and I see them and I feel like I’m missing out. But having pocd and hocd has definitely made me feel like it’s completely out of the question. I even made sure my fiancé knew that I didn’t want children/ feel like I can’t have them for fear of hurting them or passing on mental health issues. I was abused growing up and one of my old therapists told me that “people who are abused can become abusers”. That is something that I am not willing to risk. And even though I feel set on that choice, my brain still tells me that I’m missing out. So I’m constantly questioning if I truly feel like I don’t want them or if ocd is convincing me I don’t. Ugh. It’s just so frustrating.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
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