Psychosis/Schizophrenia OCD

I’ve struggled terribly with the fear of going into a psychosis or hallucinating. Sometimes I’m able to work through the fear and tell myself “if I’m hallucinating then I’m just hallucinating. It’s okay.” Or “Maybe I will go crazy.” But if I see something out of the corner of my eye or hear something I’m immediately triggered. I feel like I’m constantly seeing things out of my peripheral vision and I don’t know if I truly am hallucinating or if since I’m struggling with the fear I’m just subconsciously paying attention to the things happening around me. Has anyone else dealt with this? I’m just struggling because if I am hallucinating then I’d obviously want to be institutionalized, but I don’t know if my mind is tricking me or not. Please help if you’ve dealt with this.

Andrewmz

Date posted: 1y

Yea I have struggles with this before. Something that has brought my comfort is knowing that there is no “fail safe” or “switch” in your brain that can be flicked and boom I broke my brain. I’m crazy. That simply does not exist, there is no such thing as “snapping”. In other words, if you are worried about becoming crazy, you prolly aren’t crazy. I’m going to say this and I really don’t mean to trigger you however, it something I needed to hear. “Nothing that you have done in your life or ruminated on has stopped you from going crazy.” I know it’s a tough pill to swallow, but it’s the truth. You can’t possibly think enough or ruminate enough to the point where “ahh yes, if I continue to worry about this and think about this then it will prevent it from happening.” You got this. Don’t worry, if you go crazy you won’t even know. So the fact that you worry about it so much. You have enough self awareness. Crazy people don’t have self awareness. I believe in you! 😀

Anonymous002

Date posted: 1y

@Andrewmz I needed to hear that. Thank you so much. I’m 4 months post partum and going into postpartum psychosis has been a TERRIBLE fear of mine. The obsession comes and goes and I’ve been struggling with it again for a few days.

Andrewmz

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous002 Yea, I just relapsed about a month and half ago. Honestly though, you will be okay. Just remember that you cannot “snap” there is no such thing in your brain. Also, give yourself credit. People always forget that they are always in control. Think about how much everyone suffers here and always worried about losing control. However, my friend told me this once when I expressed my concern over my intrusive thoughts. He said “dude, you know that everyone deals with intrusive thoughts right? Do you know how much control you have to have to not give into those.” That like opened my eyes and allowed me to be kinder to myself. I was always so afraid of losing control, that I never realized I was always in control. You got this!

Melaina94

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous002 I’m 4 months pp and this is something I seriously struggle with

Anonymous002

Date posted: 1y

@Melaina94 It’s awful. I’m 6 months post postpartum and still struggle sometimes. If I feel the fear start creeping in I just tell myself “maybe I am hallucinating” or “maybe I will go into a psychosis” and eventually the anxiety behind the thought goes away.

Melaina94

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous002 The fear of losing my mind or going into psychosis literally is driving me insane. Or that I will have or get another serious mental illness.

Anonymous002

Date posted: 1y

@Melaina94 I do a good job moving passed this theme now. Sometimes I do get super anxious about it but it doesn’t really stick long. Are you able to talk yourself through these thoughts?

Karlsson

Date posted: 45w

Andrewmz, your advice sounds familiar. Did we watch the same excellent YouTube video? https://youtu.be/uao5xAfbG88?si=Id3AW0PdlMma6uXm

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Is schizo ocd a thing?

I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 19w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

cait1299

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 16w

Really struggling!

Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!

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