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I suffer from Instant false memories I think something and think it’s real like right away Sometimes I record myself so that I can know I’m not doing anything bad? Is that a compulsion?
I suffer from Instant false memories I think something and think it’s real like right away Sometimes I record myself so that I can know I’m not doing anything bad? Is that a compulsion?
i am not a professional so take what i say with a grain of salt but to me, this does sound like a compulsion since it is a behavior you do in order to relieve the anxiety or stress of your false memories
Yes, my brother has false memory pocd and he used to record himself locking his door, recorded himself home alone, he had to stop doing it because his therapist told him it’s a compulsion
Hey! I legitimately do the exact same thing. I record myself at work, in social situations (especially when I’m alone) to ensure I don’t “do anything bad” or act out anything that goes against my morals and feelings. It is definitely a compulsion to document and I’ve found it so hard to break or try to ween off of since it feels so strong to want to document just in case something happens and it’s like I just don’t have the confidence in myself to say “yes/no that did/didn’t happen”. I’ve been trying to work on slowing my documenting down. So instead of the hundreds of pictures/videos I take a day of myself like a 24/7 reality show, I limit myself to only taking some pictures or one video. That way I’m not feeling totally cut off right away and panicked. It helps a little for me personally and is a form of ERP therapy! You got this though, even the smallest of steps means everything.
@SpiceyPisces Thank you so much for your reply thats good that you are slowly starting not to document your day, it deff will get better soon Little by little each day Thank you again, you got this too.
Are intrusive memories a thing? Because I have memories pop up throughout the day, usually regrets or mistakes from when I was younger, but it's almost uncontrollable? It sort of feels like I'm testing myself to see if the memories still make me anxious or something. I can't tell if I'm willingly thinking of them or if they just invite themselves in. They're just always at the front of my thoughts unless I'm really engaged with something else or out and about with other people... I'm trying to treat them like I do with intrusive thoughts, but occasionally, it's like I can't resist NOT ruminating on these past events. I try not to, but then that only makes them more persistent. I'm just curious if anyone's dealt with this or possibly has advice? I'm guessing I'll just have to sit with it. I don't think I've asked about this before, but I might be wrong lol. I forget easily 😭 I'll probably speak with my psychiatrist about this, too, but our next appointment isn't until August. She's not an OCD specialist or haver, so I thought I'd ask here, just in case anyone can help! 🤍
So I don’t know if this is real event ocd or false memory ocd or maybe it can be both but when I was in one of my worst ocd episodes I had to record every conversation i interacted with because I would think I’m saying my thoughts out loud. So after work me and my mom went to a family’s birthday party and on the way there I was already scared that when they would open the door that i would say something inappropriate so I put my phone in my purse to make sure I didn’t. I ended up doing that getting past them but I can’t remember if I turned off my phone I feel and know that I did but not remembering every specific detail makes me think that evedybody there knows I’m recording people and that ima weirdo. I hate that I even had the ocd theme, I hate that I needed to record conversations to make myself feel better because now I look like a weirdo that’s taking videos without consent.
What is it called when with ur ocd lets say if ur ocd theme happens like when you watch videos and ur mind comes up with something or your hypeaaware, but you feel like u cant tell ur therapist cus the video is proof because no one else would’ve thought that, and you know its not true anyways you just had intrusive feeling, but i know compulsions wont do anything but ur finding it hard to sit with this really scary thing like ohm ur accepting being this bad thing or if you have reassurance at least you’d know for sure,how can u live without knowing for sure even tho uknoe its deffo just ur ocd idk if this makes sense and what you call it ?:) if anyone could help me out
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