I suffer from Instant false memories I think something and think it’s real like right away Sometimes I record myself so that I can know I’m not doing anything bad? Is that a compulsion?
i am not a professional so take what i say with a grain of salt but to me, this does sound like a compulsion since it is a behavior you do in order to relieve the anxiety or stress of your false memories
Yes, my brother has false memory pocd and he used to record himself locking his door, recorded himself home alone, he had to stop doing it because his therapist told him it’s a compulsion
Hey! I legitimately do the exact same thing. I record myself at work, in social situations (especially when I’m alone) to ensure I don’t “do anything bad” or act out anything that goes against my morals and feelings. It is definitely a compulsion to document and I’ve found it so hard to break or try to ween off of since it feels so strong to want to document just in case something happens and it’s like I just don’t have the confidence in myself to say “yes/no that did/didn’t happen”. I’ve been trying to work on slowing my documenting down. So instead of the hundreds of pictures/videos I take a day of myself like a 24/7 reality show, I limit myself to only taking some pictures or one video. That way I’m not feeling totally cut off right away and panicked. It helps a little for me personally and is a form of ERP therapy! You got this though, even the smallest of steps means everything.
@SpiceyPisces Thank you so much for your reply thats good that you are slowly starting not to document your day, it deff will get better soon Little by little each day Thank you again, you got this too.
I went to bed one night in November, and I can't quite say what happened, but I believed that I had a "memory" from childhood. I won't discuss what, but I had "remembered" doing something sickeningly awful. This thing came to me almost as clear as a real memory. I remember thinking something along the lines of 'How could I forget doing something like that?' followed by a feeling of complete horror and terror. I have moments of "clarity" where I can't believe that I'm questioning doing this thing, and it appears obvious that it's false. But now, I'm more than often believing that I did. I am spending 24/7 fighting my head, and it's taking me to dark places. I know this is the worst thing to do, but you don't understand, if this is real then I am a monster and I can't just adopt the 'maybe I did, maybe I didn't approach'. I just can't. I have to know. I'm so scared. My entire life is on the line. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Literally no one. I feel like I'm insane, like I'm a monster, like I'm hiding my true identity from everyone I love. Does this sound like False Memory? Or am I in denial, trying to convince myself this didn't happen? Why does it feel so real? And why do I have moments of clarity? I also had my first nightmare about it last night. Please someone help me.
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
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