What if vent

This is intended to be helpful. To the extent possible do not expect anyone to be supportive it is not their responsibility. By accepting that it actually takes much of the dread out of your situation. Everyone is dealing with something some better , some worse than your issues. Hang in there.

I have been having this feeling a lot lately. Feeling like I don’t deserve love or affection because I am such a burden on others. I have kept my thoughts and perseverations so secretive that I have just been struggling alone for years. I feel like I can’t be honest with others because I too feel like I am being annoying, repetitive, and a burden. I empathize with you, and I’m sorry you’re feeling this way.