- Username
- peterateff
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Here’s the thing , it’s completely normal to feel empty and feel nothing when you’re dealing with OCD , that’s because constantly stressing and worrying and feeling guilty not only strains you mentally , but it also strains you physically. It’s tiring , and that can drain out feelings you used to have. As for the guy in the hospital and the little joke you made , that could easily be an intrusive thought. Those happen a lot when you have OCD and they don’t reflect you because you’re the one that’s worrying about it !! And the other thing is , many people have that kind of humor , it’s called dark humor. Many famous comedians have humor similar to that and it doesn’t reflect them as people. you might be putting dark images in your mind as a coping mechanism because you really are sad but you’re trying to control it , and you just don’t realize it. Please understand that you are not the devil.
That really helped soo much guys . Thanks you❤️
Not even a little bit , you seem like a great person man ? you obviously care a lot about the kind of person you are and not even really good people think about that too much so that says a lot about you :)
Omg that’s soo kind of you,thank you for making me feel accepted❤️ You’re are soo beautiful person.
I hope you are ok Peterateff ♥️
Thank you for going. I will check on you later. Stay strong and stay safe. I’m here for you.
Hang in there buddy!! We all care so much about you , sending you all my strength ?? After you get out , message me if you’d like. My Instagram is @xiiiandreww if you have it. These rough times will not last , I can tell you that. All love bro
Are you alright?
Not really I’m tired of who i am
I want to start off by saying that you're not crazy, or the devil. If you want to talk I'm here for you. :) I have intrusive thoughts that make me feel the same way sometimes, so maybe I can help. ❤
You aren’t the devil bud no matter how much you feel like you are :( wanna talk ?? What’s going on
I’m guys cant forgive mysef for what i have done ..i have done some of the worst things that anybody could done and i now i have a brain of a devil that have no mental illness it’s hust horrible i cant live to be that peter and I cannot change it and I can’t see myself as anyone
You don’t have the brain of a devil though man I’m telling you the truth !!! Evil people do not feel bad about what they do and they definitely aren’t on OCD apps feeling guilty and hurt. What you’re going through is specifically because of your OCD and does not in any way tell you anything about who you are. But if it makes you feel better , some amazing people have said and done horrible things. I truly don’t think you have , but even if you did , you should not let them define you. You’ve moved on and grown and that’s all you can do
Thank you I appreciate all of that. But believe me i have an ugly nature that no one could imagine ..few minutes before i write this there is someone i know that the doctor tells him that he has brain cancer and in a very bad situation....i felt nothing.not sad or anything and that’s not it..i viewed his instagram account to see hos photos and there’s a photo in the gym and he wrote “the pain you feel today will be strength you feel tomorrow “ and i have a joke in my head tells that there’s no tommorw and he lost his time in the gym!!!!!!!! What kind of devil this issssss!!!!!! And yhis is one o miliions similar thought What kind if human i am??
You are not evil .. because you know it's just a joke .. you are just really into (black humor/dark jokes) me too ? and I consider myself a very kind person ? and I'm sure you are one too
@the dreamer Thank you soo much❤️
I kmow that there’s nothing you can sau about this ..i just want to tell that there’s something horribley wrong about me
When you have OCD it's very easy for empathy and feelings to get "suppressed" in the moment of an intrusive thought because of high anxiety and stress. What you're talking about is intrusive thoughts. You wouldn't be on here saying what you're saying if you didn't feel any empathy or remorse. You're a normal human. EVERYBODY has thoughts just like those once in a while, they aren't a reflection of who you are as a person. You're a normal human.
So seriously you don’t see me as a bad person?
No, you're not a bad person :)
@hateocd123 Thankyou soo much that makes my day❤️
Hi Peter. The comment section we were chatting on was removed. Please talk to me.
I’m here i hurted myslef
Are you okay?
@Catlady I don’t know what you did, but please go to the hospital if you need to.
I’m going to create a new section for us on the home screen.
I did that. It makes me so sad to hear that you did that, but I’m happy you’re still here.
I’m alokay dont worry i went to the hosspiyal and cant reply pleas edont worry
Ok.. feel better ? .. and remember you are not alone ?
I’m actually going crazy
I have a terrible fear of going crazy. This is a new obsession for me and this time i feel like i really can't deal with it. It feels like i am really crazy. Like i'm alone in the world, like i start to lose my memory. I fear that i will do something bad and won't remember anymore and things like that. At the same time, i feel guilt, shame, i fear that i'm prettending, that i'm just dramatic. It's unbearable, i don't know what i did to deserve this.
First of all I’m quite worried about this, I don’t wanna be psychotic but it’s strange, whenever I see something online about an old person being hurt or babies I get this weird sadistic feeling almost like I’m glad. I was a bad kid and did awful things that I would never do now. But I hate it. I don’t wanna feel like that. I feel crazy and idk what to do, but it’s like genuine. I’m worried
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