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Dysphoria
Any trans people with ocd here? I’m feeling like I might be trans I’m having a lot of gender dysphoria how do I know if it’s real or if it’s just anxiety
Any trans people with ocd here? I’m feeling like I might be trans I’m having a lot of gender dysphoria how do I know if it’s real or if it’s just anxiety
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@Anonymous I just feel like I’m more masculine….I have a very feminine body but I saw the movie I saw the tv glow and it made me realize how disconnected I feel to my body and how envious I am of men. I wish I was born a boy alot of the time
@Anonymous My family is extremely transphobic and homophobic I know I’m a lesbian but sometimes I feel like it’s so much more complicated than that but I feel too scared to explore it because of the trauma and anxiety I’ve dealt with as a woman
@Anonymous The world isn’t very nice about that stuff so I just feel scared. It makes me feel silly for feeling the way I do. Not that I think trans people are silly I just feel silly myself. I’m 21 now and I feel suffocated
@Anonymous I don’t have any trans friends I know my bestfriend would be accepting I just haven’t accepted it myself yet either
Hi, I'm an AFAB young woman but I guess I'm somewhat of a tomboy. I still consider myself a woman, though. I guess a somewhat gender nonconforming woman? Maybe that's what I am. I don't consider myself part of the LGBTQ+ community but I support the community. I probably have some gender dysphoria with some things. I love some girly stuff but I don't wear makeup (I have other reasons whay I don't wear makeup too) , dresses, skirts, but I love pink, flowers, etc. It's been kinda bugging me lately. I know I am not male, for sure, but I am definitely not a true girly girl, either. Anyone else can relate?
I believe that when I have those thoughts if they bring me anxiety and discomfort then they are OCD and not me.
I cant do anything anymore without my brain dregdging up proof from my past that I was actually trans and didn't know it, and it all seems so plausible. like I said in my last post its unearthing memories that I didn't even know I have. ik this is just ocd tricking me but I feel like I need to review every moment thoroughly bc I have questioned my gender in the past but always concluded that'd I'd happier as a girl (which is true). everything feels so real and it feels like I am just super in denial. also, how do I tell people about this? I made the mistake of confessing to a teacher on a note and only a couple friends of mine understand the thoughts I get, but I don't tell them everything. however its very hard for me to do basic responsibilities like school work and I always end up overwhelmed, so I'm thinking I may need accomdations. I need to get in touch with my counselor but i'm unsure how to explain all of this to her, being that I don't have a diagnosis....also I feel like I can't talk about this with the majority of my friends because gender ocd is rare to have (increasing my doubts) and, at least school-wise, i'm in very accepting environment for lgbtq and I'm afraid they're just gonna tell me to accept myself. I'm scared of doing erp for this because what if I like it (also cant afford therapy). ive also felt very apprehensive around some of my trans friends and classmates because my brain is going crazy asking "what if you're like them?" and I feel so bad and transphobic for these thoughts. i'm genuinely so tired. one of my closest friends died last year, but my father pointed out that my recent mood has been even worse than it was during that time. i tend to bottle up my emotions a lot, so everyone's just telling me to "let it go" and tell people, but if I do that I feel like i'll end up confessing. i'm so tired and lost.
I’m sobbing right now. I’m convinced that I’ve been in denial all along and that it’s all real. It has to be now. I don’t wanna be a boy but I feel like there’s no way I’m not one if I’m doing these things. There’s no way I’m a cis girl if I’m doing these things. I’m so fucking done with life I feel absolutely trapped. I don’t wanna be a man but fuuuuuuuuck I think it’s real now I’m so fcking done with living. I really feel like I’ve been using OCD as an excuse/a cover up and I’m scared it’s all a facade. There’s no way it’s not real now I’m literally so fcking scared I want it all to stop. If anyone has advice please send some my way. I need it badly
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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