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Dysphoria
Any trans people with ocd here? I’m feeling like I might be trans I’m having a lot of gender dysphoria how do I know if it’s real or if it’s just anxiety
Any trans people with ocd here? I’m feeling like I might be trans I’m having a lot of gender dysphoria how do I know if it’s real or if it’s just anxiety
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@Anonymous I just feel like I’m more masculine….I have a very feminine body but I saw the movie I saw the tv glow and it made me realize how disconnected I feel to my body and how envious I am of men. I wish I was born a boy alot of the time
@Anonymous My family is extremely transphobic and homophobic I know I’m a lesbian but sometimes I feel like it’s so much more complicated than that but I feel too scared to explore it because of the trauma and anxiety I’ve dealt with as a woman
@Anonymous The world isn’t very nice about that stuff so I just feel scared. It makes me feel silly for feeling the way I do. Not that I think trans people are silly I just feel silly myself. I’m 21 now and I feel suffocated
@Anonymous I don’t have any trans friends I know my bestfriend would be accepting I just haven’t accepted it myself yet either
Hi, I'm an AFAB young woman but I guess I'm somewhat of a tomboy. I still consider myself a woman, though. I guess a somewhat gender nonconforming woman? Maybe that's what I am. I don't consider myself part of the LGBTQ+ community but I support the community. I probably have some gender dysphoria with some things. I love some girly stuff but I don't wear makeup (I have other reasons whay I don't wear makeup too) , dresses, skirts, but I love pink, flowers, etc. It's been kinda bugging me lately. I know I am not male, for sure, but I am definitely not a true girly girl, either. Anyone else can relate?
I believe that when I have those thoughts if they bring me anxiety and discomfort then they are OCD and not me.
Ok so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’ve always thought I was straight. But I just really want to know how you would know the difference between so-ocd and actually questioning your sexuality. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community (in fact I am very much a token straight friend, lol) but I saw a video about comp-het recently and it sort of felt like what I was experiencing. I don’t want to be gay, I want to be with men, I want to like men, I’ve always liked men, but now I’m questioning whether or not that’s real? Because people can be gay but not want to be right? I’m single and I always have been. I think women are gorgeous, but when I try to imagine actually having any sort of romantic or sexual relationship with a woman it feels wrong, at least most of the time it does? Sometimes I’m less sure, and I’ve never been particularly boy crazy. I’ve liked maybe 2 or 3 people in my life, (not to say I’ve never found other guys attractive, but it doesn’t seem to be as often as most people) I have no particular reason to be afraid of being gay, very supportive family, safe area ect, but I don’t want to be, does that mean this is ocd, I don’t know what’s going on every time I say I’m straight I feel like I’m lying, but that might just be because I think about it so much. The idea of being with a woman doesn’t feel like something I would want, but is that just because I don’t want to want it? People online say things with so much sureness, if you feel like this it means this. Ect.
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
Is there anything that those of you who do identify as trans experienced that made you realize you were trans, and it was not anything else. For those of you dealing with TOCD is there anything you feel like you experience that you think says you are trans? For those of you who are trans. I struggle with breast discomfort, such as feeling and being aware of them all day everyday. Feeling the bra, sports bra on my skin. When I look in the mirror I feel like I am not sure if my thoughts say I don’t like them or if it’s my negative thoughts speaking. It’s frustrating and infuriating, and I want to know whether these thoughts will ever go away or if this is inevitable regardless of OCD.
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