- Date posted
- 1y
Tell me a hilarious thought you had with OCD
Did you have any intrusive thought that was such absurd that you can laught now about it even maybe it was really terrified for you in that moment?
Did you have any intrusive thought that was such absurd that you can laught now about it even maybe it was really terrified for you in that moment?
my weirdest thought with my ocd themes was probably when i engage with people that have ocd and i had this crazy weird thought âwhat if the people with ocd are just brainwashing you and you donât have ocdâŚâ
omg probably when i learned about what happened to the dinosaurs as a kid and being *convinced* that weâd get wiped out like them if i didnât perform a certain ritual lol
Listen to me right know. I HAD THE SAME EXPERIENCE AS A KID hahaha
@Anonymous Before this I struggled with months with the idea a dinosaur would kill my family then my mind closed the topic and replaced it for that đ
I was once terrified that I was going to be attracted to a guy that I did not want to be attracted to.. and my fear was that I would have no choice in the matter. Thank goodness that one passed
@Cortina đđ please, but literally same in 2nd grade and I dated him but had nightmares abt him
I had a t-shirt that said OCD (obsessive chocolate disorder) and I had a fear that bc I wore that shirt it made me have OCD
When I was very young I'd think mosquitos were like tiny little vampires and had to wrap myself up so tight in my bedding when I was going to sleep that no skin was on show, only leaving enough space to breathe. My parents would tell me off constantly for it because they'd fear I'd suffocate myself eventually
Demons were coming for me late at night when I couldnât sleep because I made a comment earlier in the day about my disbelief in god (I had been hearing âhouse soundsâ and convinced myself it was ghosts)
So, yesterday while I was laying in bed, I was relaxing when suddenly I had an intrusive thought about someone, but the thing is that it brought me a sense of enjoyment or calmness for a few seconds before it went away. Once it did, it was only until hours later when I realized what had happened and I began to freak out because I'm reading everywhere that when someone experiences this type of thing, the anxiety happens shortly after the enjoyment or "false" enjoyment. Can OCD do this?
for the past few years i have been struggling with a certain theme of ocd as well as most of the other themes. but this one i have not figured out a good way to do my own form of erp or non-engaging responses. basically i will be daydreaming or thinking and have a very random thought. i wouldnât call these thoughts intrusive thoughts because itâs not necessarily fear of the thoughts coming true, its just fear that my thoughts are too unique. my ocd will latch on to random or weird thoughts and may also add in that i was doing something weird while doing the thought. letâs say for example i thought of something random while i was rubbing my feet. then my ocd would be like âwhy are u having such a unique thought while doing something weird? nobody has ever thought about that specific thought while rubbing their feet beforeâ (just an example). but basically itâs like my ocd bullies me for having thoughts that are too random and things iâve never heard people talk about before if that makes sense. i am just trying to see if anyone relates even a little and how i can accept that everyone has unique thoughts.
These are some of my experiences with some theatrical flare to better depict how it feels. I decided to share this because when I saw this community I suddenly felt less alone in more human. Lovecraftian door Lurker: I donât know the subtypes so Iâll just be talking about my relationship with OCD. OCD! that lonely woman in the ocean singing your praise's, sure sheâll love you forever! Of course she isnât a siren planning on dragging you to the depths and tearing you to shreds. OCD! that haunting whisper in the wind calling you to fly! fly! OCD! that Lovecraftian abomination chanting at you from behind a locked door. Banging demanding you bow to itâs will. For me it latches on to my trauma and PTSD circling them like some demented teacup ride. A daily occurance for me is recalling the day I died when I was like 6 i remeber each detail of the day the kids i met the activtes we particapated in, the heat. The height of the slide before i plummeted to my death. This day consumes my life. âThud thud!â I ask my parents about it often they tell me it never happened i tell them they werenât there. Each time they lie and say Iâve never told them. My boyfriend whom Iâve been with for three years hears the story offten and often deals with me asking him if heâs seen me ask my parents. âThud Thudâ Each time he says yes and I asked how they responded âlike youâve never told them.â I constantly become afraid that my boyfreind will drown because he canât swim. âThud! Thud!â and because he canât swim that the car will go off the road into some body of water and he will die. âThud! Thud!â I feel the water filling my lungs turning them into fire, the fear of reaching out my hands with no aid. âTHUD! THUD! And he will die alone too and thereâs nothing you can do to stop it! THUD THUD!â I scream that same fire fueling my rage my tears running down my face like gasoline igniting the thought spiral further burning deeper into my self hatred. I scream again banging my hands on my head. Wish and hoping it will shut up the thoughts.âwhy? Why?! WHY!â Sobbing until Iâm nothing but a puddle. . . Ya know a few months ago I was depressed the thoughts became too much, so I wanted to get high. I thought it would make them stop âThud! Thud!â So I took a gummy it was unpackage, from a friend of a friend so now the word dog, in reference to a person is a permit part of my vocabulary. And I have memories from being in a comma because it turned out to be DMT and my 6 hour trip end up feeling like 6 months of HELL. The ocd thoughts that i usually see, in a flash became so real that i just cried for hour terrified i was stabbing my eyes out dead and this was my purgatory for leaving the church. âThud! THUD!â I stopped using my favorite water bottle after that. Before the incident The bottle up against the wall with the straw to the side of the wall because the thought that would repeat in my head would be that because of my clumsiness I would trip and fall onto the straw and it would stab my eye out and kill me. I had this thought often I kept look up what to do if you accidently get something stab/stuck in your eye. âThud! Thud!â
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