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Ocd is just so exhausting.. i ahte myself and im just so disgusted by the way i am .
Ocd is just so exhausting.. i ahte myself and im just so disgusted by the way i am .
i know this feeling... it sucks, hope you get better!
Thank you so much for ur comment i cant even explain how it means to me to be noticed especially when im suffering , thank you so much ❤️
@Anonymous 😭😭😭❤️
Thank u anonymous girl and thanks jimmy you are both great people ❤️
I feel you, and I hear you. OCD is such a wild thing, sometimes it makes you feel like you are the smartest person in the room, other times you’re too smart for your own good and question everything. If you are looking for a solution, try laughing off your thoughts. Meaning to try and detach that weight that your brain puts on those thoughts. Not going to work 100% of the time but I’ve found it helpful. We will both get through this and be OK, I believe in you❤️
Thank you so much jimmy your comment means the world to me and i can tell that you are such a great person and you don't deserve 2 suffer .. you deserve a peaceful,calming, beautiful life and mind .. i hope u also get through this mental war and i wanted to thank you again for ur comment ,❤️❤️❤️
It’s easy to say this, but remember that you are not your thoughts. It’s impossible to remember, but it helps keep me grounded from time to time.
your words actually made me feel better thank you so much for taking from ur own time just to help others i appreciate it man ❤️
I feel disgusting right now as well:( I tell myself this will pass. And I see OCD as a bully and I just accept that I'm being bullied at the moment and it's ok that I feel the way I do. the thoughts and feelings are just OCD/anxiety and will pass. Hang in there!
Thank you so much for your comment and thank you so much for telling me that I'm not alone in my pain .. iteans the world to me.. and i know how tough is it to deal with ocd and anxiety but you are stronger than these stupid thoughts and you are who you are , your OCD doesn't make you less precious 💞 Stay strong ❤️
@Anonymous Thank you for the kind words, they help and mean a lot❤️
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
It’s like my brain is doing everything in its power to convince myself and also justify an attraction to teenagers. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, but what if I don’t have a choice. How do I get these thoughts out of my head permanently. I feel like my life will never be the same if they don’t leave forever. I can’t tell what is a real desire and what OCD is trying to convince me is a real desire. I can’t do this every day for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or I don’t think I do but how do I even tell anymore. This might not even be OCD at this point, I can’t separate my thoughts from OCD thoughts I think because I’ve had OCD for so long so it all just feels like me. Maybe it is me. TMI but I haven’t pleasured myself in like a week because my libido is so low now, I don’t want to do it with these thoughts.
I feel like my life isn't my own anymore. I live by OCD's rules. I can't ever switch it off. I spend most of my day mentally reviewing and constantly checking myself. I have to do things in a certain way or i dont feel safe. All this time that i've lost and for what? Idk how I let thoughts have so much power over my life and yet here I am. Every day. I can't even get away from it in sleep because i have dreams about it and I wake up anxious if i manage to get any sleep at all. I'm so over it all.
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